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Been getting Empress lunch and also got her a Boba. She likes being taken care of, so it makes me happy too. She added a demand for calorie logging. I have been doing it but now it's more formal. May be because I missed a day..  

Worships

Empress Kat - 1864 - 1816 = 48    48 * 5 fames = 240    Skills * 4 days = 40    Cum log * 2 = 40    Contest votes * 5 (25 each) = 125 

Total is 415 + 240 + 40 + 40 + 125 = 860         860 /470 = 183% of target   This is the end of the week. 

Thank you Empress! 

It's been a quiet day. We both liked the dynamic of me being her ATM for lunch. We will continue that this week. It really helps her and i like seeing the ATM changing and me sending her money right away. It works. As for punishment during, that will come in time, I think. For right now we will get the rhythm down to just get her fed. Thern work on the rest. 

Worships

Empress Kat - 1816 - 1781 = 35    35 * 5 fames = 175    Skills - 20 

220 + 175 + 20 = 415    415/470 = 88% of target

OK, lots to talk about! First, I missed a calorie day. I would liek to point out I get one cheat day so that could be considered a cheat day. So far Empress believes I need to be punished. We will see if I can lobby my case. It's her choice of course as her work is final. But I can try..... Otherwise, I am on target. I made calories and exercise targets. Also, my weight is finally moving down even if only by a little bit. 

We had a session yesterday. One of the most intense to date. One of my punishments from last week's session is that I had to buy Empress lunch every day. As I discussed in earlier posts, we also tried to add an additional punishment factor like corner time and lines. This proved a little difficult due to logistics and Empress working. However, Friday she was off. So, to make up for earlier in the week I put enough money in the ATM (being me, I am here human ATM) so that she could have a very nice sit-down lunch after a hard week. To make matters worse for me, I had to make some pig slop - it was made of garbage and waste like banana peels, chicken fat and gristle, onion, carrot and potato peels, and a few other choice pieces of what humans consider waste. I then boiled it for safety and that was my lunch. Also, while she was dining in a nice restaurant, I was on the floor eating like a piggie. We were on a telegram call so she could see me and I could see her. It was fabulously humiliated and degrading. We will do it and/or something like it again. 

It should be no surprise I added a cum log entry today. :-)  

Worships:: 

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 Empress Kat - 1781 - 1741 = 40    40 * 5 fames = 200    SKiils - 20 

Today Friday started a new week. So total is 220

Today is the end of our week. It's been a good one. I have been buying Empress her lunch every day. We decided to add me being punished at the same time with corner time and other modifiers. As I said previously, we did the box and shock one. We had to skip the next two days, which I am sure I will pay for - wait till Friday....  But today I had to do lines in the corner while she ate. My line was "I am a filthy piggy who deserves nothing." And she is right. 

We are getting the DebtKeeper tribute logs up to date from FDO. This will be done tomorrow. I like this new site. It makes me feel more owned. If I do what I am told it's all good. If not, I pay penalties. It's as it should be. We have a lot to discover but so far so good. 

I have made 2 entries into the cum log. Empress is watching! It's a bit humiliating to have to log them and how I am doing it. But it's what a beta bitch piggy like me deserves. Thank you Empress! 

Goddess Saint Pepper has her interview to become activated. That's great news! I reached 250 total worships which is a bonus milestone. I have moved back to Empress Kat which is good as it means I will get my next collar sooner. Here are my totals for the last few days and the week: 

Worships

St Pepper - 10  Empress Kat - 1741 - 1716 = 25    35 total * 5 fames = 175    Skill's - 30 (I spent a $1 to do 10 by accident LOL) 

Totals are - (205+410)/470 = 131% or target. 

Second entry - This deserved a separate entry. We have gotten on DebtKeeper. It is a powerful site. It brings to life much of our dynamic. I have daily talks that carry a fine if I do not complete them. It has an active human ATM function! I love watching the balance go down as i scurry to pay my debt to me superior Empress! It even tracks and gives me an obedience score! Really excited about this new site. In the coming weeks we will explore some of the many games they have. 

Let's be clear, this is not a replacement for Slave Market. The debt contract and other functions are not in conflict with Slave Market. Our end goal is to get down to these two sites - and really to get away from FDO. 

Yesterday was fun. WE started a week of me buying Empress lunch and her punishing me during her lunch. She eats comfortably while i suffer. I can think of nothing better. Yesterday she had me sit in the corner with my dunce hat on and my ball shocker set to shock me every 3 seconds. 

We had to skip today as the work schedule changed, and it took long to get lunch. We agreed that Empress would have lunch delivered, at my expense of course. That way we can start the punishment right when lunch starts. She has some escalating writing assignments lined up. I am both excited and anxious - LOL  Friday we are doing something completely different. It will be epic. 

Over the last 2 days I have got 37 worships in (240 total) and completed the skills assessment both days see totals -->  Daily Fames total: 37*5 + 10*2(skills assessment) = 205   Weekly Fames total: (205+205)/470 = 87%  On target for 470 by the end of the week. 

They are all for Goddess Pepper as we try to help her get activated here in Slave Market. She has her interview scheduled. I will continue to give worships to Goddess Pepper till I get to 250 as it's the next milestone for a bonus. I will then go back to Empress Katastrophe. 

We had a great session yesterday. Empress had me post a picture in the Public Square. I then owed her a punishment based on the comments and likes. I got a total of 5 comments and 49 likes. The punishment was 5 mins of non-stop ball shocking by Empress using my Pavlok. I can tell you it hurt but I deserved every shock. It made her happy so that's all that counts. Then I had to hit my balls with a ruler 49 times. All I have in a metal ruler and she expects full hits. She of course also enjoyed that. And when I got done, she said she wanted one more to make it even. I missed the first time, so I did it again on my own. I believe it made her happy. 

In the meantime, she was draining me with a twist. We did 4 drains. Started at $5. She picked a number. If the dommes guessed the number before the drain was over, the next drain doubled. Then the last drain, which ideally for her would be for $40, if they guessed that number, I would buy Empress lunch all this next week. As it turns out dommes are not good guessers and also are a bit lazy. So, it took then till the 3rd drain to guess the number. However, since Empress deserves her money., I doubled the last drain to $20 and agreed to buy her lunch all week anyway. Now there is a twist to her lunch. It will be explained in the next entry. 

Over the last 2 days I have got 23 worships in (203 total) and completed the skills assessment both days (see totals below). They are all for Goddess Pepper as we try to help her get activated here in Slave Market.  Daily Fames total: 23*5 + 10*2(skills assessment) = 135

Weekly Fames total: (135+70)/470 = 15% - 44%  On target for 470 by the end of the week. 

This should have been Friday's entry.   Got 10 worships in (181 total) and completed the skills assessment (see totals below). They are all for Goddess Pepper as we try to help her get activated here in Slave Market.  Daily Fames total: 10*5 + 10 (skills assessment) + 4*5 (Public Pillory Likes) = 70

Weekly Fames total: (70)/470 = 15% - A new week. 

End of the month. I weighed myself and i actually gained 3 pounds. However, doctor was OK with it. All my health markers except weight are good. Will need to restructure my goals with Empress. 

I got my worships in, but not 12 - 7 (171 total) and completed the skills assessment (see totals below). They are all for Goddess Pepper as we try to help her get activated here in Slave Market.  Daily Fames total: 7*5 + 10 (skills assessment) + 2*5 (Public Pillory Likes) = 55

Weekly Fames total: (55+730)/470 = 167% - Target accomplished. A new week will start Friday. 

One hour masturbation - no ejaculation.  Foot and shoe worship, femdom paddling, forced chastity. 

I got my worships in - 15 (164 total) and completed the skills assessment (see totals below). They are all for Goddess Pepper as we try to help her get activated here in Slave Market.  Daily Fames total: 15*5 + 10 (skills assessment) + 6*5 (Public Pillory Likes) = 115

Weekly Fames total: (115+615)/470 = 155% - Target accomplished. 

One hour masturbation - no ejaculation.  Foot and shoe worship, femdom paddling, forced chastity. 

Quiet day today. Empress was back to work and i had a doctor's appointment. I had 2 separate 1 hr masturbation sessions. No ejaculation. Topics were pussy free captions, predicament bondage and beta foot bitch videos and captions. 

I got my worships in - 18 (149 total) and completed the skills assessment (see totals below). They are all for Goddess Pepper as we try to help her get activated here in Slave Market.  Daily Fames total: 18*5 + 10 (skills assessment) + 18*5 (Public Pillory Likes) = 170

I also had a cum log entry approved. 

Weekly Fames total: (170+445)/470 = 131% - Target accomplished. 

Doctors' appointment went well. I am doing well with my workouts and eating. However, I am not losing weight. I need to talk with Empress about this. 

Empress posted a picture on the Public Square. It is an amazing picture showing her strength and beauty. I also posted a picture of one of my punishments, the one with the dunce box hat I had to make. It was at her direction I posted it. I will be punished based on the number of likes, views, and comments. 

I got my worships in - 16 (131 total) and completed the skills assessment (see totals below). They are all for Goddess Pepper as we try to help her get activated here in Slave Market.  Daily Fames total: 16*5 + 10 (skills assessment) + 21*5 (Public Pillory Likes) = 195 

I also had a cum log entry approved. 

Weekly Fames total: (195+250)/470 = 95% -I still have 3 days. I will easily hit my target. 

Empress and i had a play day today. It's been a while. She has understandably been really busy, so I was glad we finally had a chance to play. She has a very creative mind. Today was three parts. 

Part 1 - I had to attach clothespins to an apple so that I could attach the clothespins to my nipples and put the apple in my mouth just like a stuffed pig. Then at Empress command I had to let the apple go so it fell to the ground ripping the clothes pins off. One time would have been good enough but of course Empress had so much fun, she posted a drain and I had to drop the apple based on how long it took for the drain to finish. Fortunately, there was a max of 15. As it turns out I started bleeding a little so Empress displayed her never ending compassion and let me stop at 10. 

Part 2 - Another drain was posted and the time it took to complete determined how many times I had to hit my balls with a metal ruler. The number was 16. I got a penalty whack for whining. Thank you, Empress for your correction. I deserved it. 

Part 3 - This was more straight forward. I put my watch on my balls, and she shocked me the entire time the drain took to complete. I believe it as about 10 minutes. She is very good at getting into a good rhythm and shocking me many times at once. 

I got my worships in - 14 (115 total) and completed the skills assessment (see totals below). They are all for Goddess Pepper as we try to help her get activated here in Slave Market.  Daily Fames total: 14*5 + 10 (skills assessment) + 20 (cum log) = 100 

I also had a cum log entry approved. 

Weekly Fames total: (100+150)/470 = 53% - I am on target for my weekly total. 

I had 2 separate hours of masturbation - no ejaculation. Porn watched was feet and shoe worship, pussy free loser captions and beta censored. 

Travel day! We meet tomorrow.  I sent my good morning greeting then off to the airport!  

I got my worships in - 10 (101 total) and completed the skills assessment (see totals below). They are all for Goddess Pepper as we try to help her get activated here in Slave Market. Golf trip is about over. On my way home tomorrow. 

Daily Fames total: 10*5 + 10 = 60 

Weekly Fames total: (60+90)/470 = 32% - I am on target for my weekly total. 

Golf today!  I sent my good morning greeting then off to the course!  

I got my worships in - 16 (91 total) and completed the skills assessment (see totals below). They are all for Goddess Pepper as we try to help her get activated here in Slave Market. Golf trip is about over. On my way home tomorrow. 

Daily Fames total: 16*5 + 10 = 90 

Weekly Fames total: 90/470 = 19% - I am on target for my weekly total. 

Golf today!  I sent my good morning greeting then off to the course!  

I  got my worships in - 12 (75 total) and completed the skills assessment (see totals below). They are all for Goddess Pepper as we try to help her get activated here in Slave Market. 

Daily Fames total: 12*5 + 10 = 70 

Weekly Fames total: (70+430)/403 = 500/403 = 124% - I clearly hit my target. This is the end of the week. It starts over on Fridays. 

I logged calories all 7 days. I only went over once which is acceptable. I hit my target for working out. A minimum of 30 mins 5 of 7 days. I had a total of 430 mins of exercise. 

Today was a travel day for me Empress has busy today again. I sent my good morning greeting as is my requirement. But I enjoy it. Makes us both feel good to start the day that way.

I also got my worships in - 13 (51 total) and completed the skills assessment (see totals below). They are all for Goddess Pepper as we try to help her get activated here in Slave Market. 

Daily Fames total: 13*5 + 10 = 75 

Weekly Fames total: (75+265)/403 = 340/403 = 84% - I should easily hit my target. 

I had a good send yesterday. I love to surprise my Empress with sends. I helped her with some supplies for work. 

No masturbation today. This has change :-) 

Quiet day again today. Empress was busy with her new job. I am very proud of her and happy for her. I sent my good morning greeting. I also got my worships in - 18 (38 total) and completed the skills assessment (see totals below). They are all for Goddess Pepper as we try to help her get activated here in Slave Market. I leave tomorrow for a golf trip. It's been planned for months. Very much ready for it to be here. 

Daily Fames total: 18*5 + 10 = 100. 

Weekly Fames total: (100+165)/403 = 265/403 = 66% - I should easily hit my target. This should make my owner happy. 

No masturbation today. This will change :-)  

Quiet day today. Empress was busy. I sent my good morning greeting. I also got my worships in - 16. I also completed the skills assessment. 

Daily Fames total: 16*5 + 10 = 90. 

Weekly Fames total: (90+75)/403 or 41%

No masturbation today. 

Today was a big day. Empress Katastrrophe, now activated, officially claimed me as her property. We formalized the contract. I will not list all the details, but there are a few critical items that involve reporting here. The items I need to report every day are Worships, Skills Assessment, time masturbating, what porn I was looking at.  If I ejaculate, then I must log it and send proof to Empress for the cum log. I must earn a total of 470 Fames a week. We will measure from Friday to Thursday. Not meeting any of the targets will result in various punishments designed to make sure I do not miss them again. 

So today:

13 worships - 9 for Empress and 4 for Goddess Pepper (Since Empress is activated, we are helping another Domme). 

10 Skills Assessment

470 total prorated for 6 days since agreement started today. So, this week's target is 470/7 = 67.  So 470 - 67 = 403. 

Daily total: 13*5 + 10 = 75

Weekly total/target --> 75/403

Masturbation and cum log start this evening. Tomorrow will be first entry if there is one. 

Empress has been activated!!  We have been working hard for this and she deserves it! We meet this weekend to start to put some of the tools to work. I fear it may be a case of be careful what you wish for, but suffering for my Empress is what I am here for. 

I have gotten behind on this. I think it will better once Empress is activated. We will both be more active. 

Last week she had me draw her feet and I was graded on the accuracy and imagination. First, this was such a treat as I got to gaze at her feet for the duration of me drawing. I tried to draw them as best I could, but I have 10 thumbs when it comes to artistic things. So, I failed. I have to swing a quart bottle from my balls for 1 min and 45 seconds. In case there is any question, that hurts! But I deserved it for not doing a better job drawing her divine feet. In fact, the only real points I got was for the little sayings I had. I just keep hoping that one day I will get to smell them and worship them in person. 

Also, while I did good on my calories and exercise, and I did meet my target for weight, I lost the weekly challenge with Empress. She lost more than me. So, I had a humiliation drain to commemorate the loss! It's starts with $10 and each time i lose it goes up $5. And it never goes down. Empress is so good to me. 

Empress is #1 in the que. She should get activated next week. That will be so exciting. 

Calories and exercise still going well. Empress has decided I need a drain train. And while I am being drained, I have to root around some whipped cream for both reeses pieces - reward - or black olives - punishment. She is a clever one! I love her for it. Anything I can do to entertain or please her. 

Calores went down to 2800 today. 

So far doing well with the calories and exercise goals!  Have not missed yet. First weight in is coming though. That's the proof of the pudding. Considering my nipples hurt for 3 days after my reward funishment, I do not want to see what wil happen if I end up earning a punishment for not meeting objectives. 

Was able to put a smile on my Empress's face this morning. Always make me happy when I can make her happy. 

Empress beat me up this morning!!  It was both exilerating but also disappointed in myself. She likes a good morning message and I pride myself in having one ready for her. It wasn’t ready today but I got it send within minutes.    But still a thrill to get her early morning text.  An honor to know she thought of me.  I am very lucky.  

Last one to get things caught up. In addition to the calorie and exercise targets, Empress and I are in a competition. Whoever loses the most weight by % each month wins. If I win, I get a picture of Empress of my choosing (no open holes, otherwise all is fair). If Empress wins, she will do a punishment/humiliation drain highlighting what I failure I am. 

First weight in is July 31. 

Last Friday was the first check in. Fortunately, I met both goals. So, I was due a funishment from Empress. We had badminton drain scheduled already but thje person we planned with got busy. So Goddess Pepper stepped in. It eas her birthday so Empress wanted to support her. with my money as it should be. The two of them are quite a pair and are very good at torturing a sub. I assume I would have suffered much more had I not met my goals but honestly, I do not want to find out. This was rough enough (truth be known I loved it). 

Drain 1 - (Empress) - Dommes determine how many balls slaps I have to give myself. Result was 30. This hurt, a lot. I have a small plastic hand Empress has me use to hit myself with. It hurts. 

Drain 2 - (Goddess Pepper) - Dommes in drain determined if I had to put clothespins on my balls and dance an Irish jig, or put nipple stretchers on my nipples and keep them there through the next drain and task. The nipples won (lost). It weas very painful as it was intended to be. 

Drain 3 - (Empress) - I had to list 10 reasons that I am a pathetic beta loser that deserves nothing from any woman. Once done, I had to put my dunce box on my head and wait for the drain to finish. This was seriously humiliating typing out the reason for all to see. The reasons I listed were: 

1. I have a very small penis. It is not enough to satisfy any woman.

2. I am submissive and easily manipulated so that makes me weak. Not a trait real women want

3. I would rather look at pictures of feet and worship feet than pussy. I get off on it.

4. I get off on being humiliated. No real man would tolerate than much less pay for it and ask for it.

5. I enjoy being hurt by women, made to suffer for them. No real woman wants that so it's only out of entertainment.

6. I am fat ugly and old. No woman should any anything to do with me.

7. I am easily manipulated by women and my sexual superiors.

8. I stink most of the time from doing chores like the slave I am.

9. I make bad decisions due to lack of self respect.

10. I deserve to be pussy free for life so as not to offend any real women. My dick is just an embarrassment, and I have no sexual talent.

Drain 4 - Goddess Pepper - Shove Empress Panties in my mouth and attach her socks to my nipples. Then sing "I feel Like A Woman" by Shania Twain will trying to twirl the socks like tassels. This was not just painful but truly humiliating. 

Drain 5 - Empress - Shove Empress stinky and dirty socks in my mouth and put her panties over my head. She then had the dommes put humiliating sayings for me to repeat with the socks in my mouth. This was seriously humiliating. The sayings were: 

1. I am a weak beta sock slut. 10 times. 

2. Thank you for covering my ugly fat face with your panties so no one has to see how pathetic I look. The socks in my mouth remind me that pigs only speak when allowed.

3. I am pathetic - 10 times. 

4. I’m a dumb dumb give me gum gum

5. MY only purpose in life is making Empress Katastrophe and her friends laugh.

Drain 6 - Goddess Pepper - Put the panties over my head and tie a sheet around me like a cape. Then make 5 superhero poses but say out loud "I am Fat Man!" Both woman really enjoyed this. I of course hated it. 

Drain 7 - Empress - Put as many clothespins on my body and face and leave them there for the duration of the drain. This is extremely painful, especially on the face. This one hurt, badly! 

Drain 8 - Goddess Pepper - I had to remove the clothespins on my balls slowly while stating out loud why I deserve this suffering and why Empress owns my pathetic ass. 

This was a marathon that was both painful and humiliating. Thank you to both Empress Katastrophe and Goddess Pepper for taking the time to torture and put this beta in his place. I of course deserve whatever punishment they desire just simply for existing. Thank you again to both of you. I feel honored. . 

Ok, so it's been a while. I was supposed to be keeping this up and I did not. So, moving forward I will do better. This will be two entries. Forst, Empress and I have made an agreement on an exercise program to maybe get rid of some of my gross fat. It will not change my status as a pathetic beta foot bitch. But it may make a little more tolerable to my superiors. 

Beginning Friday July 10, I started logging my calories and exercise in My Fitness Pal. I have the following goals: 

Calories started at 3182. July 17, they went down to 3000. Each week after the goal will reduce by 200 until it reaches 2200 8/14. I am allowed one to miss once a week. I also have an exercise goal. Until the week of 8/14, I must work out 5 times per week. Duration is not counted. Just needs to be 5 times. Starting 8/14 I must work out at least 30 mins each of those 5 times. 

 If I miss calories more than once a week or the exercise goal, Empress will punish me. Not an enjoyable punishment a real punishment. If I meet my goals, then I am due a funishment from Empress. Of course, the main prize is simply her time. To make that time more tolerable for her, she will still make me suffer. I am happy for the time together and glad to suffer for her. I am so lucky she lets me be any part of her world. 

Had a session with Madam Karma today. Empress Katasrophe has given me permission to work with others until she is activated. this raises my slave level which in turn helps her. Madam Karam is someone Empress knows and we have all played together online. 

I had 4 tasks to perform: 

Task 1 - A SPH Task - I had to gather 5 very small items, stand in front of a camera naked, and hold them next to my even smaller penis and declare my penis too small so satisfy any woman. The mantra required was: “This is my little penis. It is too small to satisfy a woman."

Task 2 - Humiliation Task - 

Step 1 - Stand in front of a mirror with all lights on looking at myself and repeat 10 times: “I am Madam Karma’s filthy obese crusty useless slob. My body is repulsive.”

Step 2 - Get my weight from a scale and measure around my gut. Put those numbers is the following sentence and send to Goddess Karma: “Madam, your disgusting pig weighs 388 lbs and his gut is 68 inches around. I’m a pathetic old fat failure.”

Step 3 - In front of a camera, Stay seated. Spread your fat legs as wide as you can.

Task 3 - CBT Task - You will take your shoestring and tie it snuggly around your balls. I want them to slightly change color not turning purple. You will use the string to hold them up as high as you can.

Task 4 - Piss Task - Clean off an alter to Madam Karma. Edge without cumming for 2 mins. Pee into a coffee cup. Boil some water and mix with pee to have a full cup. Stir then let it cool. Drink in sips saying: "Thank you, Goddess Karma, for allowing me to drink my own piss tea. It nourishes my submission."  When finished lick the cup and state: "I am a piss-drinking toilet for Goddess Karma."

I want to thank Madam Karma for taking the time to task this submissive beta and keep him in his place beneath his betters. 

It's been a while since my last entry, but life has been in the way. Today however Empress Kat put her imagination to work and did a number on my head. I was put face down on the floor nude during a wallet drain, while Empress was live streaming her feet on LF, me not allowed to look. Dommes on the drain were encouraged to provide humiliating mantras for me to recite. Oh, and with Empress Kat humiliating me herself with the live feed hearing it all. Anyone who wanted could see her feet but me! If I looked up from my place on the floor at them, I would have been seriously punished.   Thank you EMpress!! 

There were 11 mantra suggestions in all. Some of the better ones were: 

I am more worthless than a piece of sh1t on Empress Kat's shoes, the end

"I am worthless" x50

I am like the shh1t in the bottom of Empress Kats shoe and no matter how much she tries to get rid of me I am still there

I do not deserve to eat food, only send my money to my Empress Kat and live off my own toe jam

Repeat, Empress Kat is all x50

I am pathetic and permanently belong under Empress Kats shoes to protect the precious ground she walks on

It's been a bit relaxed since finishing the tasks to enter Empress Kat's empire. She was very proud of my effort as was I. I am even more proud and grateful to be owned by her now. 

Today is a big milestone, I hit 1000 worships. It carries a 5000-fame bonus. I still need a little over 9,000 more fames for the net collar, but this is still a big accomplishment. I joined May 14th. So, 1000 worships in 47 days are just over an average of 21 worships a day. Since you can only do one per hour, I consider that pretty consistent and a pretty good accomplishment. The goal is to get Empress activated so we can start taking advantage of some of the tools on the site. 

OK, this will be a long post - :-) Today was a big day. I was accepted by Empress Katastrophe's into her empire today. It was not without a lot of work. To prove my commitment, I completed the following: 

Started with 27 slaps in the face, then spent a total of 6 hours and 23 mins in the corner on a hard wood chair, with continuous ball shocks, and typing the following line "I am owned by Empress Katastrophe. Everything I do is to please Her, entertain Her and build Her Empire." approximately 900 times. I also had $388 in sends and tributes along with a plethora of humiliation and worship tasks.

Two major tasks came at the end. One I wrote a Uselessness resume and recited it to Empress as if applying for the job of Useless Piggie. It had four parts, a summary of goals which are to serve my betters, Usefulness Skills, things that might be useful to an owner like performing menial tasks and servicing her and her guests, and weaknesses, things like a small penis, lack of decision making and lack of self-control. The last section was about why my money is more attractive than I am. Let's face it, outside of being a service bitch betas like me are pretty useless. Money is the only thing that makes us attractive at all. 

The other task was to write a poem about what it would be like to be owned by Empress Katastrophe. Here is the poem: 

I Want to be a “Good Boy!”

What would it be like to be owned by Empress Katastrophe and be her good boy?

To be controlled, directed, commanded to do things you would never do for anyone else to maybe be told “good boy” and then say thank you for the attention, whatever it is.  

Why do I want that? I don’t know.

What I do know is when I am around you, I want you to possess me as a thing to be owned.

I live to please you, no matter if that means suffering through bullying, humiliation, degradation and even pain all suddenly seems like a fair price to pay to be yours.

You are both nurturing and humiliating, sensuous and bullying, soft and cruel, selfless and selfish.

But hearing your laugh, seeing your smile, feeling your happiness, makes it all worthwhile.

I go to sleep thinking of you; I awaken thinking of you.

I spend every part of everyday thinking of you.

How can I make Empress Katastrophe’s life better?

What can this insignificant being done to improve such a superior person’s life?

This consumes me, to every fiber of my being.

I believe that’s what it would be like to be owned by Empress Katastrophe and to be her “good boy”! 

I am now the property of Empress Katastrophe to do with as she pleases. I feel a great sense of accomplishment earning her trust and attention. Now I will need to work to keep my place. Being accepted is just the beginning. I know I need to prove my worth every day. I am looking forward to that challenge. 

This entry is for Thursday June 25. I completed 50 mins f my pain debt. I have 10 mins left that I will do together with Empress. I also wrote a poem and being owned by her and also a uselessness resume I will recite as part of my application to be owned by her. Tomorrow (Friday) will be a big day. 

Today's pain debt work went well for the most part. I did forget to start the video for one 10 min session I am hoping Empress will still let it count. I have screen shot the writeforme log to show i did it. For whatever reason while I thought I started the camera I must not have hit it hard enough. 

Still, I got 40 mins in today! That leaves only 60 mins! Empress and I will do the last 10 on Friday together. 383 mins or 6 hrs and 23 minutes of having my balls shocked and writing lines while sitting in the conner on a hard wooden chair seems like a pretty big accomplishment for a slave. I hope Empress sees it that way too. I think she does. She tells me often she is proud of how hard I work for her. 

30 mins tomorrow, 20 mins Thursday (or vice versa) and that will leave the last 10 for Friday.  I should note the actual due date was a very kind July 31st. However, I wanted to show my commitment and blow that date away.  So, barring an issue, the completion date should be June 26, more than a month early. My balls can tell you it's been no easy feat. 

Reached 10,000 fames today!! Made the next slave collar! So now my worships are worth 5 each time i worship Empress Katastrophe. It's taken some time, but I got there. this will help Empress get activated. She has gone from 52 when she had me join to 18 now. 

Added 10 mins!  Down to the last 100!  Still should be able to finish this Friday! 

6/21 - I missed yesterday. Life got in the way. So, this is for that entry. I worked off another 20 mins from my pain debt. Down to 110 mins. My goal for completion is the end of this week as Empress and I meet almost every Friday. We can celebrate me completing this long task. I have been happy to work off this pain debt. She deserves complete devotion and commitment. And it has focused me on what it means to be owned by her. That she will demand complete obedience which I am ready to commit to. The time is coming. 

Today I worked off another 20 mins from pain debt. I did two 10 min sessions. Errors were not great, but I am doing the best I can. I appreciate Empress creating this opportunity for me to show my commitment to be owned by her.    I now have 150 mins left. 

Edit - Added another 20 mins!  Now down to 130 mins left! I can see the end of the tunnel! Thank you Empress, for this opportunity! 

Today Empress tested my menial/disgusting skills ability. Today's task was to cover a pair of toy feet with whipped cream (I hate whipped cream.) She set up a humiliation wallet drain on another site. She started the drain and instructed me to lick the feet clean. The drain stops when the I get the feet clean. If I the drain ends before I get the feet cleaned, I was to get an additional punishment.  However, I finished the feet before the drain ended. This however left money in my wallet that belonged to Empress. So, at my request she set up a task drain for the rest of the money. The task will be added to a running list of tasks she will have me perform over time. Thank you Empress for the humiliation and for draining my wallet. 

Completed my next 10 mins. Did Ok but hoping to get better. Down to 180 mins - 3 hrs left! 

Combining entries - Added another 10 mins!  Only 170 mins left!!!  And Empress has approved all but these last 20 mins. 

Just got another 10 mins. Again, lots of errors. But lots of outside influences, tornado warnings and family calls. Now past halfway. 190 mins left. On a side note, the shocks make a huge difference. I commit to finish the sentence I am working on if the timer runs out. So far, no errors with no ball shocks. :-) 

Empress Katastrophe has directed me to start putting entries in the public diary. Today is the first entry. So here it goes. After today most will likely be single line-item updates, but this one has some significant detail.

A few weeks ago, I submitted my application to being owned by Empress. She created a public pain drain on another site to define what I needed to do to show my submission and commitment to her. For those not familiar, a public drain uses likes and comments to define a debt owed that needs to be worked off. She chose pain, although there was a wallet drain also performed. The pain debt owed is as follows:  She decided that each "like" on the drain, I had to smack myself in the face with a toy hand (different story for a different time). As for comments, I have a way for her to be able to shock my balls remotely. So, She decided that each comment would be 10 shocks to my balls. The likes were 27, not a really big number. This requirement has been completed.

The comments however tallied 383 minutes considering 1 shock per second. I am to repay this "debt" by sitting in the corner, setting the ball shocker to automatic (1 shock per second is the fastest) and writing lines on writing app. The line is "I am owned by Empress Katastrophe. Everything I do is to please Her, entertain Her, and build Her Empire." So far, I have completed 173 minutes. I have 210 mins remaining. I hope to add some today. The due date is July 31st, however, my personal goal is to be done by June 30th. 

If you are reading and got this far, wow that's perseverance. Hopefully it provided some entertainment.