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I’m so happy today ! Prolly more happier than the day I was owned. I feel so ecstatic for my Beloved Mistress , is getting better . 

This day has been an incredible experience. After a couple of days , I was able to start my day by worshipping and chatting with my Mistress. She has even given me the opportunity to do a task for her. It was an incredible experience. To discreetly play with my Willy when I think about her , while working, wow! It was amazing experience. The fear of being caught and the excitement to please my Mistress, hit very differently. Then I also had the opportunity to help a dear friend of my Mistress in achieving her golden star. I felt so useful. When my Mistress said , that she is proud of her little minions it felt so special. I’m so grateful to her for being my owner . 

So happy to have recorded worshipping my Mistress for 200 times !!!!! Rising through devotion. 

It was such an exhausting day for me. Though I was not able to play with her , I still had constant thoughts about her. I hope that tomorrow will bring a new day.  I’m looking forward to hit that 200 worships mark. I’ll be so close to the new slave rank. 

After a restless night and a stressful day, I had the opportunity to play with my Mistress.  I was instructed by Mistress to dress like a princess and insert my app controlled butt plug and hand over the remote control to my Mistress. I followed the instructions and had an intense experience of controlled chaos coupled with unpredictability. The vibrations, thrusts and rotations were far beyond explanation. It is one of those things that can only be felt and not expressed. And then I was allowed to cum. I don’t even remember the last time I had an orgasm. The cum load was very satisfying. Never wanted to cum so badly in decades. I’m so grateful to my Mistress for being so creative and caring. She truly is a gem of a Mistress. 

Tonight, I was asked by My Mistress to use my vibrating butt plug on my balls and dick! Before going to bed, I got on my knees, and turned on my vibrating butt plug and held it around my testicular area. Instantly, I could feel my flaccid dick getting hard. I was very nervous as I had to do it for 3 minutes and strict instructions were given to me that I’m not allowed to cum! Run my hands through my balls , and then to my shaft and back to balls again. Before ending the video , I grabbed my balls , and massaged them to the best of my ability. This task wasn’t as simple as it looked, it was a test of my patience and determination. Patience was crucial in order to complete the task following the instructions and determination was to please my Mistress. I liked the way she combined the two things and crafted a perfect task for a silly sissy slut. I enjoyed the take very much and would like to explore further. I feel that a strong massager or a vibrator will be a bit more challenging. But for now I think I need to take baby steps and work my way through the difficulty level. And this post would be completely inappropriate and incredibly incomplete without thanking my Gold star Mistress. For she invests so much time and energy into me and assigns me tailored tasks while respecting my limits. I’m in such an awe with her . She is the best!!! 

It was such a beautiful day! I spent much of my time talking with my Mistress, who despite being so busy , had tons of patience to talk to me, share her thoughts and enlightened me with such wise words. She is a person with a golden heart, always wants the best for her slaves ! To be honest no word in any vocabulary could justify how thankful I’m to her.  She has also set as task for me , and honestly , there’s a task in the task. The task is to use my vibrating plug not inside of me but on my balls and the pathetic meat that the dictionary calls a dick. But the task in this task is not to cum! I gotta be extremely cautious and not try to get lost in the process. As always, I’ll try my best to bring a smile on her beautiful face! For the purpos of my life is to bring joy and happiness into her life. 

This morning, I have had the opportunity to start my day by worshipping my Mistress, and interacting with her.  I really enjoyed the conversation and then she started preparing me for the play session she had planned for me.  It started with me using my regular butt plug, which turned out to be a bit painful and I had to remove it prematurely.  After which, I was asked to insert my new app controlled butt plug and grant My Mistress the remote access. The anticipation and excitement were worth every penny and second.  I really enjoyed the play and had she not stopped on time , I would have had an orgasm from anal play. I’m so very grateful for her time and efforts to make sure I’m okay and that I get what she decides. 

It was a long day today! I started my day with worshiping and interacting with my beloved Mistress. I have had the opportunity to know her through the conversations we had today. The respect I had for her has increased exponentially after getting to know her better . There’s still a lot that I would like to know about her. Before going to bed, she was kind enough to set a task for me even though she was extremely tired and wanted to sleep. I’m grateful to her for guiding me and helping me through her wisdom.  

Back to the task she set for me !!!

I got a set of butt plugs yesterday. Tonight , I had the opportunity to use them and exhibit myself using one of them.

I did enjoy the process of inserting, keeping it for an hour or so and then removing it.  Over the course of last week, I’m getting used to anal play, or rather , the duration for which I have used my dlidos and butt plugs I have used surpasses the total amount of time I have spent in my life playing with these toys. It was fun, it also constantly reminded me of who owns me, where my place is and who I really am (a dirty anal slut 😅) I would like to experience this more , however I need to figure out a way to deal with the discomfort associated with the ends of the handles. So that’s something I need to figure out.  That’s my nightly diary update and it’s always incomplete without expressing my gratitude to my Mistresss. 

This morning , when I woke up, I logged in to SM. As usual , I sent a good morning message to my Mistress and recorded my worship. It is then I received a notification that there has been a change in my contract with my Mistress. I opened it and the first thing I see is that, I will now be permanently owned by My beloved Mistress. I sign the contract without any second thoughts. I feel so lucky! 

Today, I experienced something very new to me. Something that I never thought, I would even consider doing. This was my first act or task. The task seemed to be very easy. Before my evening shower , all I had to do was drink a glass of water every 30 minutes. Then seek permission to relive myself . Here’s the catch , I’m supposed to do it in my bathtub, with half of my body immersed in water and stroke my cock and release my piss in the bathtub in a stoking manner. Now , I start off with a glass of water and realize that I haven’t used the restroom since morning, and it’s around 3 pm at my place. I can already feel the pressure building up. I ignored my scattered thoughts and try to distract myself. The next alarm was set in about 30 minutes, and now , it’s getting worse, anyways I take my second glass of water and then comes the tease. An audio from My Mistress of her urinating , the sound of her Piss pouring in the toilet seat , hit me very hard. I almost wanted to relief myself, but I had a strong will, the will to please my Mistress, the zeal of making sure that she is happy with me and with this energy I control myself and take my 3rd glass of water and just when I’m 15 minutes away from taking my last glass of water, I’m just restless. Had it not been to please my Mistress I would have peed in my pants itself. I resisted the urge, and to make matters worst , I drink more than a glass of, assuming it’s going to be easy, as I can relieve myself in a minute. Now comes the twist. Before I can take a piss , my Mistress started to tease me , asked me to jump up and down , and then beg her to allow me to relive myself while I’m

On my knees and later I sent a video of me bowing down on the floor and begging her to have mercy on me , and it is then she grants me the permission to so. At this moment, I couldn’t care less, where I’m pissing , all I wanted was to relive myself. The satisfaction that I had after all this was just beyond description. As I wrote this after 4 hours , I could re-live the same moment. The sheer satisfaction and gratitude was just amazing. I did stink later , and had to cleanse my bathtub and myself to feel better . The entire experience was great. But I’m not sure if I would have controlled it even for another second . I would definitely like to explore a bit more of this , like , to actually understand how it works and if I would like to really dive deep into the s.  I really want to thank my Mistress for helping me with exploring my likes and dislikes. I really loved our play and I’m so very grateful to you. 

The day started with disappointment but has aged like a fine wine. It feels so good to get to know my Mistress in a better way. Now I understand why communication is so important in establishing lasting connections. 

How am I so lucky ? How can I find someone who is so fully invested, kind and filling with humanity? I can’t be grateful enough to have the opportunity to serve her ! 

This morning I was punished for not being able to complete the task. It made me realize how important it is to please Mistress. I failed - I got punished. 

Waking up and knowing that your Mistress is disappointed with you is not the kind of start of the day you would want! I’m such a useless slave! I truly do not deserve anything but to be punished 

I was given a task to fuck my sled with my fat dildo and when I drip precum , I was supposed to jerk off and cum. I tried so hard but couldn’t cum. It was so difficult to do two things at the same time and maintain focus. I’m so disappointed with myself 

It feels so good to be able to talk to my Mistress as soon as I wake up. I have never felt this much joy in my life. 

I left early from my work , as my Mistress was eating for me. She had plans to play with me and had to sacrifice her sleep for me. I felt very grateful for her presence, patience and kindness that she radiates from far away lands.  I really enjoyed each and every task! I couldn’t be happier about it and very thankful to her for her time and efforts. 

I’m liking the feeling of how it feels faster anal play. I ass feels so lose and I have this feeling of like emptiness in there. 

Over the last couple of hours , I don’t know why I’m just remembering what my Mistress said after my introduction. And the texts are playing in my head with her voice ! Is this real or im losing my mind ?

Tonight , I was assigned the task of dressing in the feminine clothes then instructed to sit on the biggest dildo I had and then hump my pillow like a good slut I’m . It was a great experience, the thought of the dildo in my ass and also the humping reminded me of my place and that that’s what I will ever get as I will never experience a real woman. As I write this , it’s still making me hard. If this isn’t embracing then what is ? 

This afternoon, I was asked to write a letter to my Mistress ! It really helped me to think about a lot of things and also eased my heart! Old school tasks are always exciting! 

My Goddess! This morning has been very productive! I have had the opportunity to serve Mistress! To dress like a slut, and pose like one ! Then rode my dildo! If I’m being honest with myself, this is the most beautiful experience I’ve ever had! 

It has been a rough night, my insomnia has taken a toll over me and I think it’s partly because I’m a bit too much excited about what future has in store for me. I have been a good boy and behaved well. 

This evening I was given an opportunity to get on my fours and thank Mistress Athena for blessing me with the opportunity to serve her. I was also allowed to spread my toys over the camera and display my hole for her. It was such a unique experience! So much to look forward to! 

It has been such an honor to have find one of the most amazing Mistresses I have ever come across in my life both online and in person ! She is just very cheerful and playful 😈