Hello I am Sam, 38, from the UK. I am only 4 or 5 months into BDSM and learning about my kinks and limits as I go. Enjoy prostate stimulation, anal/pegging, chastity, JOI, body worship, ass worship.
CEI is something I've only dabbled in a little, assign if you want to make me gag and squirm. Same for oral activities.
Aside from a little bit of occasional play I'm interested in something more mid-long term e.g. scheduling, accountability for every day goals and task settings maybe with a reward/punishment for meeting or missing targets which could be done on a weekly basis when results tallied together.
** LIMITS & CONSIDERATIONS **
No involvement of dis-interested parties (public / wife) nothing illegal, no children, no pets, no blood, no permanent marks or risk of serious injury. I have a sounding kink but take sensible precautions with regards to cleanliness.
Had a bit of a time of freedom, I begged Mistress to allow me to have access her property, my little nubby peen for the weekend which was granted. I've had a fair amount of time out of chastity, but today Mistress has put me back under lock and key.
I've made some mistakes when completing tasks, and disappointed Mistress. I had to send an apology amount, and I owe her 100 spanks (50 on each cheek, when I can next spank myself at home).
My maid outfit will arrive soon, and Mistress has me selecting wigs and heels to go with the outfit next. I'm such a drippy maid slut that during this task the caged cock is dripping so much precum.
I've uploaded some skill suggestions, which was a task Mistress set me, and I've had my ass plugged at home today and had to sit on a dildo all day long as I was working from home alone. My ass is now very raw after many tasks. My dirty slutty ass wasn't clean enough today, and it should have been in a better state of readiness for Mistress.
While in chastity Mistress is toying with her slutty maid: watching lezdom bondage porn while playing with my caged little nubby. Mistress is treating me to so much tease and denial on day 1 that I must thank her today for both filling my ass, making my ass so sore and making me so drippy.
Am very tired: headed to bed. Sorry for the ramble. When my maid outfit arrives I'll use the picture feature here to upload to my diary if Mistress permits <3.
It's been far too long since I updated my diary, too many things happening with a New Year underway, and a new Mistress to serve. Being on auction was a magical experience, to see people bidding on me and my willingness to make myself available to Dommes and Doms alike and engage in slutty talk to engage and know who was interested in me. And finally I was sold! To a glorious red-haired trans female: which is a new experience for me but one I am open to and am now actively enjoying <3.
I have been keen to show my new Mistress, Mistress Valentina, just what an obedient slut I am. I have been completing tasks as quickly as I can including ruined orgasms, spanks, daily good mornings and goodnight messages and serving tea and select meals throughout the week.
Some highlights:
- Sucking a dildo to show Mistress my oral "capabilities" - but I still gag a lot and choke when trying to deep-throat.
- Being locked up in Chastity (we're nearing 10 days!) and showing Mistress I am locked, plugged and in panties even while at the office.
- Riding dildos with hot sauce
- Another Master requested a session and my slutty self wanted to accept and I checked with Mistress and was permitted to start a session! Master wanted me to strip naked and eat dog food like a good puppy. I didn't enjoy the dog food but made the video, I did enjoy being a puppy but I think I make a better slutty maid.
- I enjoyed being allowed to explore with someone else at my owners whim, but equally when another master requested a session I was denied. I enjoyed both experiences - one showing me I'm a slut ready to please Mistress and whomever she allows me to, and another showing me that I belong to Mistress Valentina and she has final say. <3
- I wrote and recorded a morning prayer to my new Mistress worshiping her as a Goddess.
Today I've had a buttplug inserted with a combination of hot sauce and toothpaste, it was a intense sensation and I had to use potty immediately after but re-applied and put the plug back in each time. Eventually the intensity was just about bearable, and I could feel the intensity on my anus and the butt plug sensations and my Mistress were all that were on my mind: all other thoughts were purged and I simply laid down and enjoyed the sensation and thinking of My Mistress. Afterwards I cleaned my ass and sent Mistress a video of me sucking the buttplug <3. Mistress probably thinks I'm a dirty, slutty maid and I think we're both discovering she is exactly right.
My only regrets have been not keeping this diary up-to-date and not recording my personal goals here. I will renew my efforts this week in this regard: even if it shows I'm failing.
Had a good day being a good maid: prepared a new meal and cleaned the kitchen well.
Goddess had me complete a scheduled task that I enjoyed very much completing throughout the day.
Am a little anxious and excited for my auction. There's exactly 3 days left.
Good day serving 1GoddessBossy completed a session task to use three plugs in increasing size, staying plugged for 10 minutes before sucking and fucking before moving on to the next. It felt great to use my ass and stretch my holes.
I've continued to build up my task list ready for the New Year =)
Meal plans are coming together and my kitchen maid duties were completed today <3
News Update
My ass for sale! My owner has put me and my slutty self up for sale: this was a mutual agreement as I am looking to explore both my kinks and my compatibility with a different owner.
Accountability Experimentation
Am experimenting today with Google Sheets as a way of tracking my goals and then how easily I can copy & paste some summary data into my slave diary on Slave Market.
This way I can easily capture data such as weight loss activities / score and copy and paste the summary data on a daily basis and then a weekly summary on Sunday evenings. I want to make it easy for any dommes or doms to read the summary data and decide whether I deserve punishment or reward as part of a session.
I am looking into this as something to incorporate into my BDSM play as I think it could be an interesting way to drive personal behaviour, and help free up some money for BDSM related activities, if for instance my maid duties was cooking a cheap home made meal in a clean kitchen instead of paying for an expensive and unhealthy take-out.
Reach out to me if you have specific ideas.
I am finding a simple screenshot of the summary data is easiest to share.
10 days in chastity and I've earned my new collar and for the moment I'm in the top 10 slaves of the month.
Also posted in the public square.
I've been such a subbie slut and exhibiting my slutty self for all on here to see.
My ownership settings were changed to prevent me interacting with other dommes as I was silly and struck up conversations without 1GodessBossy's permission. Entirely on me.
I got to worship Goddess's ass with two pictures and describe two scenes. I've sent all the details over
I've completed two surrenders:
- Ice cube in condom, placed in ace allowing the opening of the condom to dangle into a glass. Allow to melt and then remove condom and drink water from glass.
- Tie balls til changed in color then hit them 20 times
Added a chastity log entry today, not long until I've reached the 10 day milestone. This gets me ever closer to earning my promotion which I'm excited about.
Maid services today included a small grocery trip, cooking dinner, and doing all the dishes afterwards. Tomorrow I'll clean up the house even though we're not here for Christmas it's lovely coming back to a clean home.
I'm feeling very horny at this time. I need to beg Goddess for some anal stimulation... Bed time for now, Goodnight.
Hit some good milestones and completed some surrenders:
- 5 days validated streak on chastity logs
- 200+ worships for my owner
- Completed an icey-cold surrender: elastic band around each ball, balls in ice for 45 seconds, then hit balls with wood spoon and thank Mistress for each.
Getting close to earning my next collar and looking forward to being able to add more rich-text and images to my diary entries when I eventually get there. =)
Goddess has sent me voice notes in response to my surrenders that make me melt as she details my slutty accomplishments. Thank you Goddess for your attention I so desire but don't deserve.
Had a busy day generating fame for myself and my glorious Goddess and owner 1GoddessBossy.
I've completed a CBT waxing task, melting wax over my balls and then breaking it free using a wood spoon.
I have completed several surrenders too:
1. With my head fully back and funnel in my mouth, with a fresh glass of my own piss I filled my mouth and throat and swallowed every drop. I thanked my Goddess for using my mouth.
2. Boiled an egg, placed in condom, inserted into my lubricated asshole. If it broke I had to eat it, but using great care was able to insert and remove with the egg intact.
3. Three drops of Tabasco hot sauce on a tampon inserted in to my ass. Stayed in Nadu for two minutes completely still and thanking Goddess over and over. Goddess has given me guidance on perfecting my pose. Was dripping precum after this with burning in my ass, as well as burning desire internally for Goddess.
4. Filled a bucket with water and piss, with a vibrator in my ass, five apples in the bucket and had to put my arms behind my head and retrieve the apples in 3 minutes. I just about managed this.
Also completed three day streak in chastity with verification. I'm reality I've been caged for Goddess for a lot longer but happy this can now be verified by Goddess and earn us both extra fame.
Thank you Goddess for your ownership, my body and mind is yours to inflict pain or induce pleasure and I endeavor to do your bidding with honesty and integrity at the heart of my actions.
Am now the property of 1GoddessBossy and have been renamed to EagerSlut, which as my new owner points out seems appropriate.
Today:
1. Promoted up a slave rank, getting my new collar
2. Performed a number of surrenders including putting a Tabasco covered plug in my butt, and another surrender to piss into my open mouth.
3. Was delighted to hear Goddess Bossy's voice note <3 praising my recent tasks and my recent surrender.
Have had my tiny penis caged for a week now. Have been busy following Goddess instructions:
1. Wearing my cage and asking permission for any access for cleaning and washing
2. My pubic region has been waxed to remove hair from around my clitty and buddy
3. Have been doing oral training to reduce my gag reflex ready for any Goddess to use any of my holes as hard as they please
4. Wore my butt plug to the office
I am going to build a shopping list soon so I can better participate in any activities including keeping a chastity log on here.
The house needs maid services today =)
Am humbled by the Goddesses that have taken the time to stop by and use their valuable time reading my diary.
I was a good maid today:
- Warmed up wife's car and brought her lunch and a coffee to start her day right.
- Took my slave-ass to work.
- Used my lunch break to tidy up the yard
- Evening I cleaned kitchen, bathrooms, shower, and bedroom.
- Worshiped Goddesses and stretched my maid hole, after trying to deep-throat and gag on a giant dildo.
I hope this redeems my earlier poor behavior but anyone who wishes to please remind me I am due a punishment for my misdeeds earlier in the month.
Just stressed from work, and wish I had some credit to engage in more activity, but had a little natter with my superiors on here and it makes me hopeful for some longer term connections.
Reflecting on the day I've been a brat:
1. Didn't get much house work done, so not a good maid.
2. Had takeaway and no exercise, and ate the wrong foods.
3. Made too many cups and dishes dirty.
4. Forgot to floss and did not train my gag reflex.
I think my next sessions might need some punishments for my lazy misdeeds.
Been a good puppy and maid today:
- Stripped naked and washed myself clean
- Filled my butt with a plug
- Put panties on my sissy self
- Cleaned up the house doing dishes
- Woofed like a puppy and wagged my bottom
- Wrote in big letters on my chest "I am a worthless slave".
- Opened my mouth and sent a pic showing it open ready to be used to receive Mistress's urine <3 I am not sure I could stomach this IRL but would love to be worthy of this use.
- Assessed 5 skills
- Added my worship to my female superiors on Slave-Market
My sissy purse is running dry, but am looking forward to pay day and finding the right Domme to train me and maybe own me if I am a lucky slave.
I have received high praise for mt level of detail and enjoy pleasing Mistresses.
Completed a couple of tasks today for Slave-Market:
- Another entry in the cum log entry
- One task was to fill my slutty hole with a butt plug. It was tough getting it in going in quite cold, but I quickly got to pumping and wanted to create a pleasing video showing how eager I was to stretch my hole to show how it can be used.
- Another task was to keep ice on my penis for 3 minutes before edging to almost cum. My little clitty got so close to exploding, but I was good and just let it drip precum.
Test entry in my diary.
2024-11-17
I've been promoted (Cotton collar) =) and had a good day of exploration:
- Completed a surrender on my knees, edging and writing out that I would not cum without Mistress's permission <3
- Completed a CBT task in an on-going session using toothpaste, I was concerned but 1 minute of "sloppy jerking" only resulted in a few minutes of a menthol-esque sensation. Would try harder/longer next time.
- Added an entry to the cum log which has been validated.
- Engaged with a new Domme who is discussing potential ownership (contract)
- Voted in on-going contests.
- Testing out the diary feature with this post.
Date | Ownership change |
2025-01-03 08:10:01 | Starts serving Mistress Valentina (Purchased in auction) |
2025-01-03 08:10:01 | Ends its services to Mistress 1GoddessBossy |
2024-12-13 14:23:34 | Starts serving Mistress 1GoddessBossy |