Slave Myslaveboy

Today, Goddess locked this slave up, back in chastity.... this slave's pleasure always belongs to Goddess.  When locked up though, it adds another dimension and this time even more so.  Now, this slave is permanently collared by Goddess, wears it collar proudly at all times when indoors and its permanent bracelet 24/7 indoors/outdoors/anywhere.  

That feeling of wearing nothing but Goddess's collar, Goddess's bracelet and now chastity belt all locked up - this slave's clitty safely behind locked doors, no way it is getting touched or seen is something words can't describe.  It really hits home that this slave has zero control, Goddess completely owns this slave, its body, mind, and soul surrendered fully to Goddess.

And this slave wouldn't want it any other way, thank You Goddess Lady Ariaj!

Another special day being owned by Goddess - today being the official collaring as a permanent slave owned and belonging to Goddess Lady Ariaj.  This slave asked for a collar very early on, but quickly learned that Goddess expects anything worthy is to be earned not given freely.  So this slave worked hard these last few months in obedience, pleasing and serving Goddess, always learning how to improve as slave, as man, as human being.   And was rewarded today by Goddess placing Her collar around this slave's neck with a special bow tie tag to remind this slave always that it is owned by Goddess, to be worn always when indoors, with the permanent bracelet always on indoors and outdoors.  Both reminding this slave how lucky it is for the privilege of kneeling at Goddess's feet and that Goddess is always watching 24/8!

Thank You Goddess Ariaj, this slave is blessed to belong and to have You Goddess as owner!

This morning, this slave disrespected Goddess, got too comfortable and forgot its proper place.  Goddess of course corrected this slave right away, on its knees, spanks immediately, ankles tied together for the entire day and dinner to be eaten from the floor on all fours, as well as back to sleeping on the floor where this slave rightfully belongs.  

What this slave realized while eating dinner on the floor tonight is the true meaning of discipline for this slave, it isn't about pain, it is about being reminded about how grateful this slave is to be owned.  Goddess provides a sense of comfort, safety, protection to what is Hers that this slave had been craving for so long and honestly needs.  This slave didn't sleep well last night, and needed that reminder, of being owned, of no longer being alone, of having Goddess always looking out for this slave and making sure this slave is safe.

Such gratitude to Goddess for reminding this slave of its place beneath Goddess, that Goddess always knows best and that this slave's only responsibility is to obey, please and serve Goddess.  A purpose and responsibility it absolutely treasures.

Thank You Goddess Ariaj,

Your slave boy.

Today was the most special day yet of being owned by Goddess!!!  Today, Goddess granted this slave boy the privilege of permanent ownership and being collared by Goddess.  This is an absolute dream coming true for this slave, to be cared for 24/7, to feel owned and a sense of belonging that this slave has been craving for decades!

Goddess allowed this slave to order a traditional leather collar that will arrive soon with a doggy tag that has also been ordered so that this slave may wear Goddess' name around its neck when at home.  This bracelet is like a day collar, permanent jewelry that is welded together permanently, never to be removed - no clasp, it would literally have to be cut to be removed.  A reminder that this doggy belongs to Goddess always forever 24/7, that it lives to serve and obey Goddess, and that Goddess protects and keeps this slave safe always.

It is an absolute honour to wear this symbol every moment of every day, an overwhelming sense of gratitude to this slave's Goddess!

Goddess' slave boy.

Dear Diary,

Today marks another milestone under Goddess' ownership - the first day of physical chastity!!!

This slave didn't expect that Goddess today would say lock it up, thought today would be another training/trial day only, then Goddess keeps surprising this slave and today said lock it up with tamper seal!!!  Of course this slave obeyed as this slave knows Goddess always knows what is best for this slave!!  This slave is a transgender man, still with female bottom anatomically - it has made finding a chastity belt much harder, so this slave is beyond elated that it finally found one with Goddess' help of course and Goddess deciding on which one to purchase as this slave doesn't make any decisions.  

There is a realness to being locked up, a moment where power exchange and surrender really hit home.  This slave has been in mental chastity for extended periods of time over the past 18 months or so now, but could always 'cheat' a little by still admiring downstairs and wiping in the shower or after the bathroom to get some touch and pleasure.  Now though, the door is completely closed, no looking, no touching until Goddess allows again.  And this slave so far is loving it, it has been a dream of this slave since being introduced to the world of D/s, feels very much like the ultimate giving up of control, especially with the tamper seal!

This slave continues to be grateful to be owned by Goddess, to be introduced to new experiences always with this slave's health and safety at the fore front.  It is an absolute privilege to get to kneel for Goddess, now kneeling while locked until Goddess decides otherwise :)

Goddess' slave boy.

Dear Diary,

Another few weeks has passed, and this slave's devotion to Goddess and surrender is growing stronger and deeper with every single day.  Goddess literally decides everything for this slave.  Goddess decides where and when this slave sleeps - on the floor at Goddess feet fully restrained like a good doggy should.  It is also where this slave sleeps best, those deep sleeps that this slave craves and didn't get before being owned by Goddess.  Sleeping in the big bed is a total privilege that this slave is learning shouldn't even ask for, Goddess knows when it is good for this slave and will tell this slave when it is.  

Goddess decides what this slave eats - this slave's reality is that treats are now only allowed when Goddess gives explicit permission - a small cookie requires permission and similar to big bed, it is best not to ask for one.  There is a chocolate bar staring at this slave every morning in the cupboard, and the closest this slave has come to having chocolate is licking it from the toilet bowl in one of the tasks, and boy did this slave enjoy every lick :).  Goddess decides how this slave spends money with no place to hide, this slave knows if it even dares to spent a penny that hasn't been approved by Goddess....  And for the first time ever, this slave is able to save Goddess' money each month!!!

Goddess promised this slave strict control, this slave needs it, otherwise is just a lost boy with no direction walking aimlessly through life!  Above are just a few examples, Goddess literally makes every single decision for this slave, this slave's only decision is to obey Goddess and be grateful for the privilege of serving Goddess.  Thank You Goddess for owning this slave :)

Dear Diary,

This slave has now been owned for a full month by Goddess Ariaj!  Goddess continues to transform this slave in every which way possible, when this slave thinks it has even one ounce of control or decision to make, Goddess reminds this slave that Goddess completely owns this slave.  This slave has no rights, only the privilege to obey Goddess.

Goddess keeps surprising this slave with new tasks, new ways of surrendering, and new ways of daily small reminders that leave a big impact on how this slave now moves through the world.  Every moment of every day, this slave now thinks and knows it is representing Goddess, that this slave's body belongs to Goddess and is Goddess' property.  It has totally changed the way this slave is taking care of Goddess' property, eating better, slowly gaining much needed energy back, sleeping better without nightmares, being wise in how Goddess' resources are used, sitting upright, gaining confidence, trust, and healing along the way!

Goddess keeps proving to this slave that Goddess cares deeply about Goddess' pet, wants only what is best for this pet, and is determined to not let this slave slack or lose discipline.  Goddess' control never lets up, it is always there, strict, loving, and providing deep profound change.

This slave thanks Goddess for owning this slave.

Dear Diary,

Today marks the second week of true full ownership of this slave to the beautiful inside and outside Goddess Ariaj.  In a short amount of time, Goddess has already transformed this slave's life to one of structure, discipline and accountability.

Goddess has an uncanny ability to see right through this slave, to already know exactly what is best for this slave even when this slave is still learning to trust and let go of deep wounds and pain this slave has been carrying for a lifetime.  Goddess has invited this slave to be vulnerable with Goddess to really get to know Goddess' property, and this slave in turn has found a safe space to just be the authentic slave that this slave is, to feel all the feelings of life, and to always be held accountable.  This slave has craved and needed strict control to enable real change, and has finally found it with Goddess Ariaj.  Goddess is always fair with this slave, explaining and re-inforcing the peace that comes with total surrender, and correcting this slave when this slave overthinks, get in its head, and doesn't obey as a result.  

Goddess is teaching this slave patience, to live in the moment, to love this slave, to feel safe and that this slave is no longer alone.  So much gratitudes for the first two weeks, and so much excitement for more transformation to come!

Slave jo.