Today my MistressAbi celebrate her 10th year Domme anniversary. Congratulations my dear Mistress with this achievement. And thank You for being my Mistress who i serve and obey.
Today i realized that i didn’t cum for 34 days already. i don’t ask for cumming anymore. i am carrying a dick, balls and cum for MistressAbi, She is the owner and She will tell me if Her balls need to be released. i am just here to please Her and suffer for Her as a little meaningless pain whore. Always ready to be tortured and fucked by her. Thank You MistressAbi, every day is a gift to be allowed serving You!
This week is torture week. i didn’t cum for 29 days now and i feel more and more the desire for pain. Today i had to put weighted clamps on my nipples and tight the clamps together to make my nipples twist. i bound my balls added 2,5 kg of weight on it, put my largest buttplug in with tabasco on it and sit for over 5 minutes on all fours on raw rice. Thank You Mistress Abi for making me suffer… i deserve it to be tortured by You to make our D/s relation more intense, Mistress. Thank You as well for humiliating me by being bottom naked wearing my buttplug during a work meeting. i would have never done this without Your strict demands, Mistress.
i am in my second week of being owned and i have never been more submissive as i am right now. i feel the need for torturing, wanting to suffer in pain for MistressAbi, logging in almost every half an hour (sometimes even more) to check if i got instructions already, which is a suffering on different level on its own. i am writing this right now being on my knees for MistressAbi.
Every time i log in on slave-market which is a lot being owned and worshipping my Mistress, i check if my Mistress is online. When She is, i have that excited feeling…. Will my Mistress give me attention or will she ignore me, which is Her biggest right, since i am just here to please her and not the other way around. The moment my Mistress gives me attention is so valuable for me, melting by her words, her demands, her strict commands. Thank you MistressAbi for being who You are, my Mistress.
Today i worshipped MistressAbi 500 times on this platform. 500 hours in which i thought and worshipped my Mistress. In my mind, however, i worshipped Her much more. She owns me, can do with me what she want as long as my private life is secured. Thank You Mistress, i am saying this a lot, but i am so grateful You allowed me as Your slave, Your servant. i am proud to carry Your dick, balls and cum, Mistress. They are Yours and Yours only.
And an edging weekend ended. Today i edged 7 times for my Mistress, feeling horney, submissive but over all devoted by not cuming. Thank you Mistress for making me obey you. The best thing ever happened to me.
Thank you MistressAbi for making me edge over and over again. Yesterday 8 times, Today already 2 times. It make me feel submissive, devoted and frustrated, Mistress. Just as it is meant to be.
Yesterday i got my first task from MistressAbi, edge the whole weekend and write about it daily. Every time i went to the bathroom yesterday, i edged, thinking about MistressAbi, stopping cum in time by hitting my balls or just stop. Thank you for that Mistress. It’s what i need, controlling my orgasms for you and not spoiling your cum.
Back in ownership with MistressAbi feels like coming home. Still fully yours, devoted and obeying as you demand.
Today is day 31 i didn’t cum for MistressAbi. A record already but i need to hold it for another week. MistressAbi demanded me to avoid to spoil pre-cum and safe all in a tissue. Next week i have to taste it. A disgusting idea, though i will obey since MistressAbi told me so. Bringing Her pleasure is my goal.
Yesterday was a hard day. A day without any notice from MistressAbi. That’s something difficult for me. The longer it takes the more i check my account, the more i think of my Mistress, the more i worship her. That is beautiful since that’s my purpose, worshipping and pleasing my Mistress.
Yesterday i executed my first task of this ownership for MistressAbi. The result is a hurting bud so i will think of my Mistress every moment i sit. Without i would have been thinking of her as well, but now i also feel her whipping me and fucking me as the whore i am. Thank you Mistress, this is all i deserve.
Yesterday i received my first task from MistressAbi without the pressure to execute it within a specific time. i want to execute it as soon as possible since i want to suffer for MistressAbi and i want to be her whore. i will wait till a suitable moment to give the task all attention it needs without the pressure of being caught by someone at home. i feel so devoted to MistressAbi, never felt this before from a BDSM perspective.
Today i signed a new contract with MistressAbi and i am very happy about it. The conditions are softened a little to make me feel comfortable in my home situation and lowering the pressure. Within this boundaries i will serve, obey and grow as a slave under the control of the wonderful MistressAbi.
Live is a mistery… A month ago i was owned for the very first time in my life. Before that i played single sessions both online and real life. Being owned made me feel cheating on my wife which i never had before… Now i am not owned anymore MistressAbi is in my head a lot.. i have to think about a way to make this work, since i miss MistressAbi and actually want to serve her.
Date | Ownership change |
2025-05-21 11:03:54 | Ends its services to Mistress MistressAbi |
2025-04-25 15:07:08 | Starts serving Mistress MistressAbi |
2025-04-11 10:15:05 | Ends its services to Mistress MistressAbi |
2025-04-03 20:03:02 | Starts serving Mistress MistressAbi |
2025-04-03 19:04:10 | Ends its services to Mistress MistressAbi |
2025-03-28 09:49:08 | Starts serving Mistress MistressAbi |
2025-03-03 11:41:31 | Ends its services to Mistress MistressAbi |
2025-02-26 12:23:20 | Starts serving Mistress MistressAbi |