At this moment, I am in permanent service under Goddess_Ariaj.
Loyalty and effort are devoted fully to Her, with a sincere wish to grow and improve for Her.
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The dynamic that feels right is one that is caring yet strict, focused on guidance and shaping a beginner submissive in service to Goddess_Ariaj.
There is a preference for a supportive and structured dynamic — not degradation or humiliation, but clear control, sensual pain, obedience training, and personal growth.
Submission is a way for me to become better: more disciplined, fitter, more confident in vanilla life, and gradually more skilled in serving and pleasing Goddess_Ariaj.
Long-term online service with regular tasks is the preferred format.
I enjoy:
Cock and ball torture (CBT)
Ballbusting
Ball bondage
Exercise punishment
Chores with toys
Sensory deprivation
Clothespins
Nipple torture, clamps, and weights
Naked exercise
Pain
Wax play
Ice play
Edge play
Pain play
Everything that is not forbidden by Goddess_Ariaj is considered permitted.
Restrictions:
Humiliation, degradation, insults
Permanent damage
Public exposure
Coprophilia and toilet play
lie
Manipulation for own benefit
Findom
At the moment, I have only just begun to familiarise myself with the chastity belt.
Just yesterday I accepted ownership from Goddess_Ariaj. This is not some reckless, impulsive decision made on emotions without thinking about the consequences. In life I almost always return to the theme of femdom and BDSM; almost every orgasm I have had has been connected to that theme rather than just porn and stroking, and when I stop to think about it, that is more than ten years. Of course, I have never had this kind of format before: I could decide for myself when I wanted an orgasm, what I wanted to do and what not, what to try and what not to try, being my own master — but now that is changing.
Goddess_Ariaj is a Goddess whom I want to trust; Her manner and style of communication are perfect, and Her mind is captivating. One almost immediately understands that this is the one being I have been searching for, someone who can teach me so much, who is powerful, honest, kind, and fair, and who knows this path and continues to grow within it to become only better.
I hope I will be able to meet Her standards. I will try my utmost to do so, and I hope I will not fail the choice of Goddess_Ariaj
Another interesting question has come up: is it enjoyable for Mistresses to play with experienced slaves? After all, they already know a lot, are ready to do and carry out many things, have broad experience of what is allowed, are less easily tempted, and have strong willpower, among many other qualities.
Some doubts arise from this. It can seem as though a Mistress might want a slave not to be able to complete a given task, and then the question appears: who should show initiative? Should the Mistress raise the bar (while also being careful not to harm the submissive), or should the slave deliberately act as if something cannot be done in order to please the Mistress? It becomes a strangely intriguing thought.
Oh. Finding the diary after ten days — that is definitely progress 😂
First of all, heartfelt thanks are offered to every Mistress on this site: for being here, for what is done, for the time given, for the effort put into growing within this theme, for the wonderful emotions given to submissives, and for the creativity shown. All of you are truly remarkable.
Thanks are also given to the developers of the site for such a creative approach to building this space; everything feels thoughtful and well designed. You are doing an excellent job as well.
| Date | Ownership change |
| 2026-02-24 16:50:36 | Ends its services to Mistress Goddess_Ariaj |
| 2026-01-26 21:57:07 | Starts serving Mistress Goddess_Ariaj |
