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I've decided to start wearing cupless bras or bras with holes where the nipples are again, now that it's warm out. It turns me on so much to have my sensitive nipples rubbing against my shirt. Also the idea that people might be staring at my tits when my nipples stick out turns me on so much. 

Right now I'm wearing a top that's a little see-through, and an under-bust bra that pushes my tits up, but doesn't cover them at all. If anyone looks close enough, they can see the shape of my nipples and even the shadow of my areolas. I'm going out around town wearing this. If I weren't worried about dripping everywhere, I'd go nude under my skirt too. I get so wet that anything I put inside to keep me from dripping will probably slip right out.

Back during COVID times, I bought a face mask that had a built in rubber cock. Being gagged in public, sucking a plastic cock that no one else can see... so hot. I had to really suck on it to keep from drooling on myself. I still have it. Maybe I should wear that too.

My unique padlocks arrived! I ordered 4 different styles of vintage locks so there's some choice for my next Owner. I double-checked, and none of them can be unlocked by any of my other keys, so any one of them would be perfect for my chastity belt.

Only a few of them can be engraved, but I'll hold off on that for now. If my Owner wants one engraved, I'll go pay for whatever text they want, no matter how horny or degrading.

One of my previous Owners made me cut holes in almost all of my bras so my nipples can be more visible through my shirts, and I still have them. I'm wondering if I should start wearing them again now that it's warmer out. It's a fun sensation, my bare nipples rubbing against my shirt all day. They really poke out at work because of the air conditioning keeping it so cold.

I've started to look at day collars, the type that are permanent once you put them on. I like the anklet style ones a lot (and for my lifestyle that's probably more appropriate), but there's something really special about the ones that go on the neck. I would want something simple, but with a ring so that anyone in the know would recognize that I'm owned immediately.

Of course, I'm not owned just yet, so I won't buy any, but it's fun to look at what's out there. I don't think I could wear anything SUPER bold, but a reminder that I belong to someone no matter where I go is really hot.

I'd love to be someone's furniture. I've imagined all kinds of options from videos I've seen.

A footstool to start. That's an obvious one. I would be bound with rigid stocks so I'd be forced on my hands and knees, my Owner's feet resting on my back. I couldn't move or speak, because foot stools aren't meant to.

I could be a fancy lamp. I'd be bound on a metal pole with a dildo forced inside me, keeping me standing in place. My arms would be bound behind me, and I would be wearing a posture collar and a tight corset to force me to be still. My ankles would be bound together and I would be in high heels to stand taller. A lamp-shade would be on my head, and a light in my mouth that can be turned on and off when I bite down. My nipples would have tassels clipped to them, so when my Owner pulls them, I have to turn on or off the light.

Another idea is I could be a table cloth. Bound down, food set onto my body, unmoving as guests eat off of me. I would have to hold in my reactions if anyone spills anything or lets their hands explore while they eat.

Finally, I could be a statue in the yard, bound naked in some kind of elegant pose. I would be purely decorative, no purpose other than to stay still and beautiful.

I had a hot dream the other night and thought I should share.

In my dream, I was wearing a low-cut dress which barely concealed that I was wearing a chastity belt and bra. The chain straps were really easy to see sticking out of the top. I wore heels and walked from home to the store, and I forbid myself from talking to anyone unless they talked to me first. Also, I decided that I would do whatever anyone told me to do.

When I arrived at the store, people were staring at me and talking about the bra. A store owner yelled at me to come into his store, and I did. When I was inside, he violently pulled my dress down to reveal the chastity bra. "You're a locked up whore, aren't you?" he said. I nodded. He asked for my keys and I handed them over, then he raised my dress and tucked it into my belt so my chastity could be fully seen. Then he bound me to a metal pole so I was standing upright. "You're going to be my little mannequin today and stand here pretty to encourage customers to come in. Just stand here, still and silent." I nodded again, and did as I was told. People came in and gawked at my chastity, a few even groping my ass as my other parts were locked away. When the work day was over, the man untied me but didn't return the keys. " If you want these back, you need to come back tomorrow. I'll think about letting you out if you keep doing what I say." 

I went home, still fully in chastity and unable to free myself. When I woke up, I was dripping wet.

I've often dreamed about buying a chastity belt, but shipping it to someone else. That person would then ship the belt to me, but keep the keys.  I'd be locked up for an indeterminate time, helpless and unable to touch myself. I never want to touch myself so much than when my body is locked out of my reach.

Ugh, I'm turned on right now.

I'm really turned on right now, so I'll share another fantasy of mine. This one is a little more wild.

I don't mind my small tits, but I've always wondered what it would be like to have big tits and get milked like a cow. I'd be bound in stocks, back arched, ass out, tits hanging down, completely naked. I'd be gagged with a plug gag because cows don't speak, and a powerful milking machine would be suctioned to my nipples. My nipples are really sensitive, so the suction alone would probably get me squirming. As the machine starts to pump my large tits like udders, I'd be fucked from behind with a powerful machine with a dildo attached. Now and then, while I was being milked, the farmer would come and use my mouth for his pleasure or touch my clit until I moaned and was desperate to cum. 

When I'm done being milked for the day, the farmer would strap me into a harness that fills my holes before putting me in the barn for the night. Eventually I'd be fitted with an ear tag and a tattoo/brand on my ass cheek to prove who I belonged to. I'd be brought to cattle shows where the judges would fondle my body and rate me in front of an audience. If I did well, I'd be rewarded with a vibrator inside me for the trip home. If I did poorly, I'd be forced to pull the wagon home, whipped if I was too slow.

It's definitely one of my more extreme fantasies, but that's the point of fantasies. They can be as wild and horny as you want them to be.

Here's a fantasy of mine...

I go to work, wearing a chastity belt and bra under my clothes. All day at work I can't stop thinking about it, reminding me that I belong to someone else and my body isn't mine to touch. When I get home, I have to strip naked right at the door, and lock on metal cuffs on my wrists and ankles, putting on a collar as well. I lock my wrists behind my back and kneel in front of the door to wait for my Owner to get home. When my Owner is home, they attach a leash to my collar and pull me along with them through the house as they unwind, tugging me over to fondle my body everywhere but where the chastity devices cover me. During dinner, I eat from a plate on the floor, then when I'm done my Owner uses me as a foot-stool as they watch some shows. Finally, I'm completely bound, gagged, and tethered to the bed. Owner fondles and strokes me until I'm hot and bothered, then leaves me with a vibrator inside of me on low. They leave, and when they come back I'm a wet mess, desperate to cum. They don't let me, simply cleaning me up, removing the vibrator, and locking me back in chastity. I sleep naked at the foot of their bed. Whenever I get a shower, they supervise so I don't touch myself, and sometimes I'm not allowed to use warm water if I've been bad.

I'm never allowed to wear clothes at home, and must always wear a collar, ankle and wrist cuffs, and often even a gag.

This turns me on so much to think about, but it's only one of my many fantasies.

I just realized that the padlock I bought is engravable! Maybe I'll wait to see if I get a Master/Mistress before I engrave it. I wonder if the engraver will do it if the text is explicit. You can't really read "fucktoy" as anything but a sex thing, after all.

I want to be bound and gagged and toyed with so badly today. I love when I'm vulnerable. One of my favourite ways to be tied is in shibari with my arms bound behind me and my legs tied into frog-ties. Frog ties are the best at keeping me helpless and making sure my holes are easily accessible. Something else I love is when my tits are tied up. There's something so hot to me about having my tits bound and sticking out. I used to be able to put my handcuffs around my tits, but they've grown too much at this point to get the cuff around them. 

One time I almost got trapped on my bed when I self-tied in a spread-eagle position. I couldn't reach my wrist with my mouth or my other hand, and my ankles were thoroughly bound too. It took a lot of tugging and wriggling before I got free.

Another time I cuffed my elbows together and then my wrists, then locked my collar to a radiator. I couldn't reach the keys, and since my elbows were almost touching I couldn't pull my arms in front of myself either. It took a good hour of struggling before I got out. I was worried I'd have to call someone for help (I kept my phone nearby).

These days I have a friend that knows I do kink things, and will even tie me up if I ask them to. That means I'm safer to do self-bondage because they're always willing to come set me free if I get myself trapped.

I've bought a unique padlock online so that if whoever owns me wants me locked up, I can't cheat and unlock my chastity belt.

I'm really excited that everyone can see my submissive profile picture. I'm on my knees, where I belong, barely covered up. You can't see it in the photo, but I'm gagged as well (a large ball gag). I love when they make me drool on myself. It reminds me that I don't have control of my own body when I'm bound and gagged.

I'm nice and smooth below the waist now. The problem is, I can't post a photo of myself kneeling yet because I've got writing on my body, and the profile pictures specify "no text". I scrubbed it off the best I could, but it's still pretty easy to read. Maybe after tomorrow's shower it won't be as visible? I'd scrub harder, but I don't want to irritate the skin too much.

Last night I found a beautiful chastity belt. The price tag is ridiculously high, and it's currently out of stock, so I'm safe from temptation. It's solid metal though and looks nice and secure. I think for now I'll just buy a unique padlock so the keys aren't the same as some of my other toys. That way there's no cheating when I do eventually go into chastity again. I've fantasized in the past about sending my keys to someone in an envelope and letting them decide when to send them back. The idea that they're fully and completely out of my reach really turns me on.

For now though, I'm free of any chastity.  I've been day-dreaming about going to work, plugs in my ass and cunt. I love the feeling of being filled, and it makes me drip like crazy. I've been having lots of sexual dreams lately too. I get into these modes of severe horniness where I just want to touch myself every morning, after work, and right before bed. I don't know what it is about this time of year...

I don't know how the "cum log" works yet though, so I haven't masturbated in a few days. I don't know how I'm supposed to prove that I came, because unfortunately I'm not the type to squirt. Maybe wet panties is enough?

I've been browsing toy websites again.

I have a lot of toys (mostly gags, honestly) but I always find myself browsing kink websites anyway.

I sort of want to buy a new chastity belt, but I need to do more research oh what kind I'd get. I'm the type of person that can't cum without clitoral stimulation, so as long as I can't reach my clit, any belt is effective. I prefer metal ones that are sturdy and tight so I can't easily reach under them.

I want a more subtle chastity bra too. Something I can hide better under my clothes. The one I have has heavy chain straps, so I have to wear sweaters to hide it. I didn't think losing access to my tits would be a turn-on, but the second I locked the bra on I got so hot. It's been awhile since I've last been in chastity for a long period of time.

I'm going to get back to being smooth-shaven starting tomorrow. I already drip like a faucet, but without any hair down there it's even more apparent.

I've been really horny lately and have been wanting to be dominated. The idea of being someone's plaything really turns me on.

I'm very new to this site and I'm not fully sure what to think just yet. The idea of doing tasks and being someone's slave is really appealing, but I'd like to understand the website a little better first before I commit to anything. It's a little intimidating that there's a lot of money involved.

I want to post a new profile picture soon when I'm not as busy. Something sexy and skimpy. I don't know yet how I want to censor my face. Maybe a full coverage mask? I haven't decided.