Slave alwaysobey77

i am from Spain and live in a city called Madrid.
i am 48 years old, 1,73 m. tall (5 ft 6” in), and around 63 kg. Ma’am.
Regarding my studies, i am an architect and right now i am working for a multinational company that erect and operate renewable energy plants all over the world.
Speaking about personality, i consider myself as an honest and loyal person who tries to treat everybody with respect and politely, and ultimately being a good person.
And in regards of my tastes, i love to read, listen to music, swim and draw.

Last, but not least, regarding my personality, despite of trying to keep it as a secret, i am very submissive, obedient and fetishistic as well. i love women clothes as panties, pantyhose, shoes, heels, boots, leather, latex, Their marvelous feet... and also hypnosis, but what i really crave is mental domination, feeling controlled and totally surrendered to a Dominant Woman.
i have a girlfriend and i do love her with all my heart and the last thing i want to do is to hurt her, but i cannot deny that my biggest desire, what i really crave for, with all my heart, is to feel surrendered to a Dominant Woman, but at the same time i am afraid to give in and allow myself to be totally at Her mercy.
i desire more than everything to surrender myself completely, but i am scared at the same time. Probably it sounds estrange or stupid or much worse, but i wanted to be always totally honest. i do not know why i feel both at the same time, but it is the truth.