Slave MyRubberDoll

Kink is a very interesting concept, one that spans so many divides, but if is in your blood stream and your soul - it will always be there .

It takes a very special dominant to not only understand the highs and lows, but have the empathy and skills to believe and condition the slave to navigate challenges and be there , knowing that an unbreakable connection is being formed .

Such a connection is built around a mutual understanding and deep enjoyment of exploring deeper and darker corners of kink .. Creating large smiles where others would be confused ..

🙏.. So much more than a Mistress ..—- my dominant — Mistress Lee …

Anticipation can be a very interesting feeling - one that can sometimes be all-consuming .

I feel that is a good thing - since it recognises the significance of what is on the horizon . Which is the recognition of my inner persona - but not just recognition , it is the opening up of the persona to allow my Mistress inside and for her to fully take it over - use it - train it - modify it - abuse it. - take it deeper into her kinky world and let it flourish — and with the right attention let it bloom like a rose bud .

There is one Queen of Kink ……🙏.

When you feel your Mistress unlocking the entrance to your mind, then entering it to rebuild and reconfigure it to align with and serve her kinky desires and what she wants you to be …

All this while she is at a distance - may not even be awake  - is when you know that she is not just incredibly beautiful but she is extremely skilled and powerful…

To my Mistress..

When the sun rose this morning I thought about my Mistress and the seeds that she has planted in my thoughts .

She continues to grow and nurture these seeds with great care and attention , dedicating her time and energy to mould be to be best the best slut, whore , slave I can be for her..

Yes she is beautiful and yes she is very kinky and I could write pages about her kinky desires that we have fulfilled (only she can comment on what might happen in the future)..

But this isn’t about detailing scenarios, it is about taking  one step back and recognising all the effort that she puts into not just understanding me,

but thinking about the future, planning instructions and training - thinking about what will work for us and always creating surprises. This takes a significant amount of effort and must not be overlooked and is fundamental for

moving forward .

I really appreciate this , more than words can convey - and urge others to think about the actual effort there Mistresses  put in …

To my Goddess … Mistress Lee.

Following on from my last diary post and the development of an alternative persona which is the creation of a Dominant…

. The development and rewiring of the mind is most powerful and leads to the kiny thoughts blending with the vanilla world .

This is when you know how deep your Mistress / Dominant is going  and how good she is / they are ……. And it feels very good .

As we journey further into kink, the desire to be stripped of a male vanilla identity and orientation becomes even greater. Conversion into an object that can be trained , used and abused for the desire and fun of a dominant becomes the objective., so often directed into female attire to re-enforce the loss of the male identity and create a female shaped object …

Going further - the Mistress can rewire the mind of this object , constructive hypnosis / brainwashing ..to modify the slave to further adopt the new persona and become even more accepting of kinky training techniques…

This takes time and longer sessions provide the 

opportunity to live and feel the required persona …

the journey continues…

Certain places can only be reached through guidance from dominants that can live and breathe inside  you - can understand your inner thinking and working … 

This is then used to create a unique route into the world of kink —- and reach highs that are both hard to describe and may almost feel like existing in a parallel universe.. 

To be taken to such a place has been breathe taking and  has taken a while to come down from , such was the intensity and conflict within a vanilla world ..

A unique, thought provoking experience has created unforgettable memories but also left a craving to explore further …..

To my Mistress ………..

Kink is so much more than four letters and it doesn’t have to be complex , even in what may appear like simple forms it will raise you to new heights and enable you to alter your mind to accept it is a normality.  This combination is mind bending …

 It is how you are guided in the world of kink , how it is delivered and the connection that is formed with the Dominant that is leading you ..

You just need to find a Queen of Kink and I have …

It’s sometimes hard to describe a feeling  - but this feeling is one of connecting vanilla and kink worlds A journey to explore the boundaries and connections , starting with the open arms of my Mistress, welcoming me back into her world - placing myself in her control, a blank canvas - a raw piece of meat … for her to enjoy …

When your porn is watching yourself serve your Mistress , then you know that your Mistress is on another level.

The only way ….…

to my Mistress —- Mistress Lee …

There are such feelings that only my Mistress can stir - and not just stir them but mould and guide them.

This only becomes more apparent when they are left for a while.  Life can become busy and my Mistress always talks an out balance and patience .

To have a Mistress that provides such foundations is a feeling like no other. She knows how to reactivate me, find my inner soul and I feel make me come back stronger , even more keen to learn and with and even greater desire to be taken further into her kinky world —— where kink is indeed the norm and not the exception. The definition of kink , being defined by my Queen of kink. 

Where others may become open eyed at what they see — my eyes focus on and  connect with my Mistress and she in turn feeds her desires through this connection…

To my Mistress ..

When you can blend kink and vanilla - everything multiplies —- That someone , that knows what is below your vanilla exterior and can explore, use and exploit it , while other pass  by without raising an eyebrow, without knowing the magic that is being woven and in front of their eyes. Such magic being created by a true Goddess of Kink .

To My Mistress …🙏

The world that is the realm of a Mistress, is full of servitude and training , where kink is the  norm not the exception..

This normality in such a world can seem so foreign to those who are on the outside and are unable to open their minds and embrace the need to serve and please our superiors.

The understanding of kink and knowing how to go deeper into its corners and darker places is a skill that only a few can truly comprehend or deliver.

To be guided, reminded what is required and to allow your mind to be adapted to accept the  normality and pleasure of true kink, can only be achieved when connected to a truly magnificent and skilled Mistress …………….

To My Mistress —- who goes far beyond this ..🙏🙏🙏

Time can sometimes move very slowly where there is a heightened anticipation of unknown requests, which will be designed to serve my Mistresses kinky desires..

But in the same breath - I remember one of our first lessons in patience. Patience is part of the journey and just adds to the anticipation….

Kink is so much more than an image or an action , it is how we feel , how we think and how our minds are trained to explore, discover and experiment ..

Patience plays a massive part …

To My Mistress ….🙏🙏

Reflecting on my Mistresses recent introduction and expansion of the use of wax , weights and  extended sounding ..

For many the thought of Cock and Ball Tortue is completely foreign , particularly men that are ruled by their waist, believing that their cock gives them some sort of power, control or unwritten rights - the actual cause of many wrongs.

For me CBT is a natural progression to rebalance the mind, where the torture creates building blocks of servitude - realising the insignificance of male genitalia and the passing of control to a superior women - women that not only take pleasure from the process, they also have the experience to convert this into a stronger connection with a slave and demonstrate the need and pleasure of serving a Mistress….

The journey to realisation is a path laden with sacrifice, pain and pleasure …

To my Mistress ….🙏🙏..

To have such a guiding light is something that I can sometimes struggle to put into words ..

Someone that truly understands your thoughts and how to nurture, realise, extend and share them, while at the same time be super conscious of and understand the complexity of life … Takes a unique person , a person who needs all the respect and adoration that can be provided ..

I am fortunate to serve such a person - that person is my Mistress ..

A feeling that is constant 

A feeling which you don’t need to seek

A feeling that is magnetic

A feeling which drives you to crave more .

Feelings that can only be created through a genuine connection and desire to explore together.

A Mistress seeking to be served and pleasured.  A slave looking to learn,  be trained and stretched..

This life is amazing - this life has been created by my Mistress ..

I feel what I feel because my Mistress has taken the time to understand me and workout how she can best adapt and modify me to serve her desires .

This doesn’t happen overnight , it takes time and lots of experience from my Mistress . The more she brings me into her world, the better I can serve her and the more she can push and extend my boundaries  -  and the greater the connection becomes .

It is a cyclical process which grows in strength as time goes - but we must never forget that it revolves around the dominant sex , a Mistress - who needs to be served and entertained . 

A Mistresses time is precious - make it count, think about her needs, and the effort she puts in. She is the priority….

Luckily I am still flying from my most recent training that i received from my Mistress ..

That is how a true Goddess works and a real demonstration of what they are capable of……

See my previous diary entry for more information.

My Mistress invited me to meet one of her friends, a Mr Zucchini-Courgette. A time and outdoor location were arranged with the knowledge that Mr Zucchini-Courgette, was quite hardy and had spent previous night in a freezer.

I was told to just wear rubber stockings and suspenders, heels and make sure my slutty balls we’re weighed down .

On arrival I noticed that the guest was slightly overweight , but also that there was no obvious impact of spending the night in the freezer - how wrong I was …

It wasn’t long before just a first touch from Mr Zucchini-Courgette created a cold sensation that it wast long before this turned into a kinky numbing sensation— closely followed by a stretching feeling as the guest spared no mercy and buried themself deep into me .

The cold sensation went straight through me - and although they withdrew briefly, it wasn’t long before the freezing feeling returned and this time deeper inside me ..

The numbness just made me susceptible to be opened up even wider and it wasn’t long before long before I was at the full mercy of Mr Zucchini-Courgette, a quick pounding …

The meeting was quite brief , but told it was just taster for what my come in the future .

I was left in a heady state - opened up, feeling used and abused , cold within but in reality so warm , knowing that I was serving Mistress, bringing the biggest smile to my face ..

What it feels like to serve a true Goddess…

The day starts with brand new, thought provoking, delightful, warming and kinky memories freshly created and never to be forgotten..

thanks to Mistress Lee ..

As a new day starts, but the same thoughts spin through your mind - over and over ,,,

That one person could have such an impact and that the world of kink is such a beautiful place — but it’s full impact is only realised when there is someone to show you its beauty ..  Not just show you , but guide you through it and experience it ,, creating memories —- real experiences  - with a real Mistress …

Somethings you never forget - my Mistress has given me a memory that I will never lose ..

For that , I am oh so very grateful and will do my best to serve and follow her teachings into the further reaches of her kinky world …

You know your Mistress is great , but what is great  and how do you quantify that .

My Mistress has just redefined the word - by guiding me into a different scenario that I would never have thought of , or even acted upon. But in the hands of my Mistress she just has taken me to a different world , pushed boundaries and taken me to new highs ……..

The word Goddess is an understatement for my Mistress … Mistress Lee…

On days like today, the sun creates a comfy warmth  - which accentuates the feeling of rubber under vanilla clothes . The warmth grows  but is then multiplied when you remember there is one that knows what you are wearing, and no matter how far away they are ,, it feels  like they are sitting next to me, smiling . That is the connection a true Mistress can create ..x

My Mistress understands me , she has taken the time to dig deeper into my thoughts and mould them to meet her desires…..

To have such a Goddess take the time to lead me through her world of kink is very special experience - and she knows that my mind is open to go deeper into the world of kink..

Even the anticipation of receiving a new message  is a pleasure that can’t be measured …

It is her that I serve , it is her that I aim to please…

Never underestimate the power and control that a true Mistress will have on you ..

It’s something that you won’t realise how impactful and beautiful it is, until they start to show you how  deeply connected you are . 

Then it’s just a matter of time before they start to trigger your mind on their command. 

Only a true Mistress can open up parts of you mind that you didn’t know existed..

And once opened she can mould it , play with it and make it hers ..

There is so much joy in the journey of serving ..

It’s so much more than a feeling when my Mistress trains me .

It is a rewiring of my mind to serve her kinky desires ..

Purpose is serving Mistress Lee…..

Feeling fulfilled is making Mistress Lee smile…

Waking up to hear the voice of your Mistress inside your mind, is an experience that can only be achieved over time, and with a Mistress that knows how to transverse that different levels of training a slave ….

Experienced thanks to Mistress Lee …

The feeling that has been nurtured..

The feeling that flows through the fabric of your soul

The feeling that doesn’t leave you..

The feeling that can only be created by a true Goddess 

The feeling that only a slave feels when they have a true Mistress..

You know when you have found that feeling …

For Mistress Lee …

Open you mind - let your Mistress enter it and feel her reconstruct your inner thoughts to accept new levels of kink ..

Mind Reconditioning is required to fully serve a true Goddess..

Distance is not a barrier .:

I feel so connected to my Mistress and she is deep in my thoughts, so much so that when I place on a piece of rubber I feel her next to me , inspecting the choice, she is there to check that a chastity cage is secure …

But even deeper is when a buckle is being tightened on a collar or the final zip on a hood is being fastened, — I can feel her closeness, her breathe and her whispering the words :

’Now you are ready for me to have some fun my Rubber Slut’, 

These words being tattooed in my mind and from now on the only thought is to please, serve and let my mind be fully taken over by her……

Distance is not a barrier ..

Having someone that not only understands my thoughts, but knows how to mange , build and extend them through a deeper connection is a place that I never thought I would be .

So fortunate to have met Mistress Lee …..

Unknown and undiscovered paths build anticipation - which when unlocked equates to new feelings of joy, submission, pain and pleasure ..

The one that can unlock those new paths is a creative Goddess — which is Mistress Lee … the Mistress ..

Just when you really understand the different levels of beauty that your Mistress beholds — she has the capability to move to a different dimension- where beauty is redefined again .

the power of women - the power of of a true dominant- the power of Mistress Lee .

When two days feel like a lifetime ….🙏❤️…

If you want to truly explore the meaning of kink - then you need to contact my Mistress ..Mistress Lee . 

She is a wickedly kinky Goddess …

Never stop believing - the belief will drive the craving and desire , which a dominant can hold in their hands and mould it to their wishes..

Mistress Lee knows how to mould and create …🙏🙏.

To develop a strength of connection between a Mistress and a slave / servant that easily overcomes any distance that may exist, shows the overwhelming dedication, open mindedness, experience, elegance, understanding and allure that a Dominant can possess..

My Mistress goes well beyond the above and for that I will always be oh so thankful…

My Mistress always brings the light on gloomy days …🙏🙏.

A layer of rubber under vanilla clothes provides that constant reminder of being a small part of a matriarch society - specifically , under the direction of and serving a strong women. A women that enjoys taking subservients deeper into her world of kink .

The warmth created by the rubber - mixed with the smooth texture and kink feelings🙏🙏 , brings her right next to me , wherever I am ..

We talk about being part of Mistresses web. A place more beautiful than the view of an autumn sunrise glistening through the dew on a large web created by a spider.

A place where you aren’t held against your will  - rather it is the beauty, creativity and experience of my Mistress which creates a need to learn and serve, builds the addiction to be taken further, feeds the need to feel her web wrap further around your thoughts and bind to your soul, the craving to taken deeper into the web to fulfill her desires , entertain and be abused as she leads and introduces you to her definition of the word kink - her web - her world ….

An indescribable bond ……🙏🙏🙏🙏.

It is not just what my Mistress does - it is how she makes me feel.. She knows what I need before I do ….Magical , a real Goddess … a true Mistress …

But most importantly - a real friend …..

When it is your Mistress that takes you to unthinkable highs - you know the connection runs deep and is unique. 

Being viewed in the public square is not about me - it is about showing the work and beauty of my Mistress. Pleasure for me is based on the number of  people that learn about how much of a Goddess my Mistress is and the connection that she has and continues to nurture.

Having someone that can help unpick and make sense of emotions and feelings, goes far beyond people’s perceptions of a Mistress.

Thats why my Mistress is a true Goddess and is able  to operate at levels far above original thinking ..

If you want to really explore your thoughts - contact her….

Proud to say that most of my day has been spent thinking about the many qualities of my beautiful Mistress - and what future may hold …

Always thankful for the truly valuable words and guidance that my Mistress provides , even when my thoughts may become clouded , she has the ability to lead me on the correct path and provide a shining light …. 

Mistress Lee (my Mistress) has the skills and beauty to take you to unimaginable highs, which will build from deep inside your soul and provide you with  experiences……

Believe me - I have been there ……. More to come …..

If you want to be taken to new worlds of pleasure - then look no further than My Mistress - Mistress Lee…

 Connect, serve, thrive and feel alive …

When you feel your Mistress laying the foundations to take you through doorways to kinkier realms - deeper into her world.  You have to bow your head and let her into your mind and thoughts — connect and let her control guide and deliver you the destinations that she seeks … These destinations will

bring mutual pleasure , of which you couldn’t have imagined……

The true art of a Mistress - a matriarch….

My soul is being filled with the desires and needs of my Mistress and as each day passes she becomes a bigger part of me. Guiding, teaching and using me to live out her kinky desires  - my mind and  body, obeys , submits and learns 

Even when she isn’t there - she is there ….

Our minds are one of most valuable assets that we have .

It is very transformational, refreshing and enlightening to feel my Mistress embedding herself deep into my thoughts and feel her transverse my mind.. she knows how to activate and encourage my kinky desires, but also take me further into her realm. A realm full of deeper and darker kinky servitude , a realm built around her beauty , a realm where controlled release is encouraged- but in her honour and for her benefit.

A realm where she is the Goddess to be worshipped, served and her kinky desires fulfilled..

Mistress Lee is the Goddess in that realm, she is the one inside in my mind and she is the one I will obey ..

The kinky and debauched world of my Mistress is what now forms the foundations in my mind . It is her that knows what buttons to press and how to guide me deeper into serving her desires ..

A journey without a destination - but just the guiding light from the soul of my Mistress..🙏

The oxygen for my rubber soul is provided by my Mistress.  

Through her direction, comfort, discipline , words, humour, desires , control and elegance.

I have to thank my Mistress for the continued provision of that oxygen …🙏🙏

Each day …

Each day the desire grows stronger,

Each day another part  of my rubber soul is consumed by my Mistress,

Each day is another step closer to feeling complete

Each day is another step into the world of Mistress Lee…

Each day …

When the end of the day is only the beginning, and you want the darkness to never end - it is the feeling that it is another who will determine the start and the ending. True dominance rises above words and images.

My Mistress not only sees within me, she also sees what is around me. 🙏

It is the beauty, creativity and depth of kink within the mind of a Mistress or Master  that will define your journey and destinations.

My Mistress has all of those elements in multitudes. does yours …

Your mind can see much further than your eyes .  The elite Mistresses and Masters know how to take you further down the path of your mind and beyond .. Let your thoughts guide you - not your eyes, feel the power of a connection and let it thrive ..

Rubber head bowed to my Mistress …

It takes a different level of Mistress - a superior Dominant to demonstrate that what lays beyond the physical realm will build a picture that you didn’t know existed. A picture with so many secret paths and dark corners that you may get lost - but you will feel that Mistress close to you - always guiding you, fulfilling her kinky desires through you .  That is my Mistress — more than a Goddess..

Only one knows how to hold,  mould, shape, guide , lead and own my rubber soul..

I feel my Mistress close to me- she not only knows how I think, but what I need to truly serve her desires  and grow as her submissive. Her beauty is blinding and her aura addictive , she is the bright light in my rubber world ..🙏To my Mistress …🙏

A word , a comment., a note - these may appear small, but the reality is that to receive these from my Mistress, provides a real feeling of recognition,  belief and value - which in turn makes the fire burn even brighter and stronger within me - a fire from which my Mistress will use her magic to mould and shape me …

am I alone with such thoughts …?

The elegance and beauty of my Mistress has so many layers that she is quite rightly a Goddess. Being lead across these layers is a journey that one could never have imagined or dreamed of, and continues to amaze and consume me ..and this is just the beginning…… do you have the same thoughts about your Mistress …?

When your Mistress is in your dreams , you know that she is an elite superior women who’ not only has extraordinary skills but knows how to use them …🙏

As dawn breaks it is my Mistress who brings the light to start the day . Each word or recognition is like the comfort from the rays of the sun, often unseen - but warms you from the inside , makes you feel alive,  present and valued .🙏..

Can you feel the beautiful eyes of your Mistress, look past your outer vanilla skin and view your inner soul, her gaze surveying the object before her - to be trained and dedicated to serving her …? … I do — Mistress Lee…..

Being allowed and encouraged to worship is being allowed and encouraged to grow ..🙏……..

When you only have one thought - you know you have a real Goddess of a Mistress …

Our minds and thoughts are one our most valuable assets . Only the elite Goddesses and Mistresses know to engage , mould and control these assets . My Mistress is without doubt in the Elite …is yours ?

Our lives twist and wind, day by day, week by week., but it is very rare that someone creates a connection, which although you may have just met - it feels like you have known each other a far longer length of time.

This maybe a cliche, but when it happens it creates an unforgettable warmth that you will never forget.. I must thank my Mistress for providing me with that feeling …. 🙏🙏❤️.