Slave Toyboi

Second Entry

In my first entry i said that i wouldnt post here on a regular basis and its still not my intention but in this week a lot happened and quite some progress made. Since this week comes to and end it is just a good opportunity for me to recap and gather my thoughts to bring an update to the goals set.

First I would like to mention that I didnt know that the best owner in the world Mistress Diamond would get notified if I made an entry. I didnt expect her to read my diary and i wrote it with that in mind. She read it and it turned out very well but I still wanna put my own thoughts here so i will try to ignore that fact while writing. Hello Mistress if you are reading this ;) (not sure tough).

A BIG thing i wanna mention is that this week marked the first full month of ownership completed and it marked a big milestone of a hopefully much longer journey. It was a big event for me as a slave. I really was scared that i might not be considered any longer as good property to own because of the things mentioned last week but it seems like I still was. On thursday we agreed to extend my ownership contract which really made my day.

As mentioned before today I wanna bring an update to the goals already set and maybe mention some new developments.

Updated Goals:

1. Neediness

• I had a conversation with my biggest shareholder (she holds all 100%) about this and thankfully she didnt think that i would be needy at all. But my messages probably were a bit to long and often sent so i implemented some changes and really held back. Mistress Diamond was queen of the week again and i knew that always when she is in public spotlight it means a lot more attention around her and work. So i really tuned back to help her out. She works a normal job, is a personal trainer, a Mistress to her hubsub and a mistress to a lot of slaves on here. Thats something that needs to be honored. We even had some days this week without any contact or just 1-2 Messages a day. It was brutal for me and really took out a lot of enjoyment i had but it was worth to support my owner. I just got so used to daily talk to her and interact with her over the last months. She always lightens up my day. But it also made me appreciate every conversation we have even more. We also had some days were we chattet A LOT and talked things through and found a middle ground that works. I feel like we were able to connect on an even deeper level this week 

2. Awarding my Owner

• Still not quite sure about this point. Currently i am really trying my best with the worships to earn my mistress flames this way and to get her to the golden whip. I wanna mention here that i feel like i am really dedicated with it but damn Bogdan and Vanil are on another level. Truly built different regarding worshipping. I am risking to get cought during work and the day and they are still far ahead of me. So congratulations are in order. Mistress Diamond suggested that i should attend a contest but i wasnt ready for this months. It really scares me to be on public display but i think next month i have to do it to show my devotion and dedication towards her. My goal would be to enter two and hopefully win them and to bring home that fame. But we have to see if i will be able to overcome my fear when the time comes. Other then that i really put a lot of effort into chastity training this week. Able to wear it a whole day with some minor problems but able to keep it on. Only the sleeping is really hard and holding me back currently from starting my log. Hopefully i will be able to do that soon. I am not sure if i will ever be a long term chastity slave, because i free balled all my life until now, but i feel like atleast on a weekly basis i should be able to do it for Mistress Diamond, since its such an important topic for her and i feel like she really loves it. 

3. Fitness

• I was able to start my transformation. very little tough because i am a lazy ass but picked the topic up with my owner and we will work on it. I really appreciate that from her. She is so sweet and caring and didnt expect that she would support me on my way in this regard. So it really helps. Unfortunately i got sick this week so already taking a break and not much to update. Looking forward to start again.

4. Handing over the last rights I have

• There is a really special ritual for the slaves of Mistress Diamond which completly transforms a slave into her property. I dont know what it is yet but i know what the "Reward" is and i really need that. There are some requirements tough to be considered which i didnt fullfill yet. I am not sure what they are but she told me once i am ready she would tell me. With all the things mentioned above and my total dedication to her i hope that one day i will also be considered. I dont care if it happens this year or the next one. I can wait until Mistress Diamond thinks i am worthy. Until then i will give my best to entertain her, make her laugh and bring joy. Thats why i am here

THE END;)

First Entry

First time writing anything on here. A bit nervous. This will probably not be like my daily diary or also not on a regular basis but just when i have some thoughts i wanna write down. I usually keep them to myself but why not try something new. 

I truly have the best owner. Not only on here but i think on the whole world. Mistress Diamond is perfect in every aspect. She is soooo perfect. Every interaction is a pleasure. She is like a two sided sword in every way imaginable. Even her voice. Quite girly but i was a lucky one and able to hear it when she is dominant and that is something else. Also her apperance with "fabulous at forty" is a huuuge understatement. 

Today i have some thoughts about exactly that. Having the perfect owner but i feel like i am no were near a perfect slave. Eventough she seems very happy with me and i always tell her that she can be completley honest with me. I feel like there are some points where I can improve as a slave to make it better for her. My owner is just to sweet as a person and cares so much about her property (which i love) and she doesnt wanna hurt us.

So I will list some thoughts on where I have to improve:

1. Neediness

• I feel like I am just to needy as a slave. Generally I think that thats a big turn of for Doms so i wanna change that. I really chat often a day and send so long messages. My owner always has a wall of text when she checks our chat. I create so much work for her which wouldnt be necessary. Sometimes I feel like she serves me and not me serving her how it should be. Because of those reasons I will shorten my texts and only send them when needed. Atleast i will try.

2. Awarding my Owner

• I have the feeling that Mistress Diamond loves being a Dominatrix so much that. The golden whip rank is her highest priority i think. I really wanna contribute to that goal and thought i did quite well until I saw some statisitcs she shared today. I am at the bottom of all her owned slaves. That was a big hit and i hope i am not at risk with my ownership status. There are probably of other worthy slaves out there to take my place. I really looked into the fame gain on this site today but i wasnt able to find a solution yet on how to improve. The only steady incoming for being worshipping. The other options like public square are to scary for me yet. Chastity Log would be good but i am unable to sleep with the cage yet so thats also out. And the Cum log would be the last option but my owner thankfully took away that right because i was a horny bitch and that permanent denial already changed me to the positive. 

3. Fitness

• Mistress Diamond has a perfect fit body. Fitness and sport is her passion besides BDSM. She even is a personal trainer. Then she has me as her slave. Big tummy and thin stick like arms and legs. That cant be a pleasure for her to look at in every task. She never told me that i am fat and should do something. My guess is that she is just really professional and mature in that way. Again doing everything right. But i dont wanna hurt her eyes anylonger. I wouldnt have been pissed if she told me directly. I got some Gym equipment to work out at home today. Nothing big but better than nothing. Dont have the time currently to go to a gym on a daily basis. I will start to get my body in shape for her.
  

Thats it for now. I hope i will be her property for a long time and that the steps I try to take actually  make it more enjoyable for her.