Slave Subby_Scientist

Day 5, the beginning: Yesterday I decided to dive into the deep end of submission and submit myself for a month to a Mistress, I say a month but I feel it will last a lot longer than that. Her words were so intoxicating, her body divine, her voice was music in my ears repeating constantly telling me to submit, I couldnt hold back any longer. I am excited and nervous about what the future holds now that she holds my pleasure, my body, my everything under her control. But I know deep down this is where I belong, this is my purpose, to serve and degrade myself for her pleasure. My body and pride make ache in pain but as long as it makes her happy then that is all that matters. 

Day 4 Morning, I was unable to complete my diary entry for last night, moving forward I may do these in the mornings to not be rushed in the evening. I have been a denied and leaky mess unable to play in over a week, more turned on than ever as I sink further into my submission. I am excited to be moving forward with being owned. I found a Mistress who is not only deviant and good at what she does but she is also a caring and considerate Mistress who has been understanding of my situation and made me feel comfortable. I want to submit myself to her, I want to be trained, I want to experience what submission truly means. 

Day 2, I am going to do my best to complete these daily to hold myself accountable until I am owned, then it will be at Mistress's discretion. Day 2 started with a surprise, an unexpected voice gift from my favorite Mistress on here. It was a nice way to start the day however it did make it hard to concentrate on work as my mind was preoccupied by the sound of her voice, her words, her teasing. It didnt help the fact that I was denied the day before left a leaky and submissive mess. I wanted nothing more than to spoil her and submit myself. But I am taking my time and not rushing into things until I am ready. Or maybe that is the fear talking, I'm not sure. What I am sure of is I am glad to have joined and grateful for my experience thus far and I am especially grateful to the Mistress who has shown such an interest in me and allowed me to rediscover a part of myself I had forgotten. 

This is my first entry and my first full day here. So far it has been an interesting and rewarding experience. I have talked with several Mistresses but one specifically caught my eye with her offering estim services. I reached out and she was very welcoming and understanding of my situation and made me feel comfortable. We completed a chat session which was exhilarating and left me wanting more. It also made me realize how little I truly have experienced and gives me hope for my future experiences on here. I'm left horny and desperate but she was pleased with my service so that is all that matters.