Slave Stiller

Unfortunately ownership under Goddess_Ariaj did nor work out. I am the one to blame. 

Anyway, this is my mission (From Lenny Krawitz  - Stand by my woman)

There were times I didn’t understand There were times I failed to kiss Your hand There were times I broke Your trust And left Your heart to gather dust But now, my Mistress, I’m here for You Because, my Mistress, I live only to serve You

I’m gonna kneel for my Mistress now I’m gonna kneel for my Mistress now Because I cannot live my life alone

Without Your throne

After Goddess_Ariaj accepted me as a servant through ownership, my life has been full of useful teaching and lessons. Every day
Goddess is harsh but fair. She knows what is best for me and leads me in a direction where I constantly deepen my submission to her. I am fortunate to have won her favor.  Even though I do my very best and try my best I often fail , when Goddess points this out I realize how much I still have to learn . No one is a better leader and teacher. 

I got a valuable insight when Goddess_Ariaj wrote, 'You are to enjoy the discipline of control, not the release. Your pleasure lies only in obedience to Goddess’s will.' I had never seen it this way before, usually, release is considered the climax, that which one strives for. Realizing that for Goddess, my release is irrelevant, is an important step in my development as a submissive.

Accepted for trail period with Goddess_Ariaj. Serving her with all I've got 24/7. Praying that she will grant me ownership

I ended my account believing I could manage without a Dominatrix to guide and discipline me  But without a Female Godess to

admire and worship , I lost all sense of meaning in life. I understand now that my purpose is to serve. I need also someone to set structure, routine, and correct me when I stray. I am totally lost without a firm Domina.ownership. That is why I am returning.