Slave MyBootRag

I have had a magical ten days with my Goddess. She has worked me hard but also been very generous. i have earnt her lots of fames, so much so i've earned two new collars. She has shown me her beautiful boots, allowed some very intimate moments and cared for me with encouragement and support. And she was generous enough to end the day in an explosive fashion

my motivation for serving my Goddess comes from my identification as a submissive. i know that my Goddess is Superior, i know that i am her inferior. Because of my submission i have her above me, making decisions for me, having me behave in a certain way, wanting me to complete certain tasks. These she decides on, for her amusement and pleasure. Because of my submission this also makes me happy. I am not interested in just seeking short term fulfilment of kinky tasks, i need to have a superior lady really be part of my life. Goddess Airaj is that. Thank you Goddess, it is wonderful.

i have only been owned by my Goddess for two months, but in that short time i have a lot to be thankful for.  my Goddess is very generous with her time. i enjoy seeing a message from my Goddess, whether it is a nice message or something more challenging. I look for little things that will amuse my Goddess, things that will improve her life. I feel her effect in mine too  i spend most (all) of my time with her in my mind, thinking i need to tell this to my Goddess. i feel her presence when i make decisions. i find myself asking "would my Goddess approve." I have never been a masochist, but i know my Goddess is more than amused when she has me beaten. i know she is more than pleased with my redness. As a result i embrace the paddle. i embrace what she causes, for her. Only two months owned, but i look forward to many more.

In Romeo and Juliet our heroine asks "What's in a name" meaning it doesn't matter that Romeo is Montague. In my relationship i have found the opposite. i love it when my Goddess uses my real name. It feels that what she says is more meaningful. i can hear her disdain as i read it. Being called by my real name connects me to her. There is also a name i am called that my Goddess decided on because it reflects my true nature. i guess the exact opposite of nominative determinism, but a name full of meaning. It means a lot to me. I think it means a lot to both of us. It is very demeaning and has an even more demeaning shortening.

When Goddess Airaj claimed ownership of me i knew it would sometimes challenge me. But i was not prepared for the safety and care i feel. i'm not getting carried away, my Goddess has made it quite clear that what she owns needs to be in good condition for her, i know i am feeling care because my Goddess wants me in a condition she can abuse. Care for her reason, not mine. But care non the less. 

To be honest I"m not sure that my first few weeks serving Goddess Airaj were that successful. Yes, she seemed to have fun, but i seemed to say "sorry Goddess" very regularly. i wanted to be a good submissive, i wanted to do things right. But i held on to the thought that my Goddess had seen something in me. Then i had a few days where i seemed to be pleasing my Goddess. i even received praise. But on Tuesday i was brought back down to earth. i was told off and given a punishment. And the evidence of the punishment...my skin wasn't red enough. Still some way to go.

My first diary entry, it ought to say how happy i am to serve Goddess Airaj. Since she asked for ownership my life has changed. Now Goddess comes first. I follow her instructions. She is always in my thoughts. I love it. I cannot visit Slave Market as often as i would like, but my Goddess has found other ways of controlling me. And now i live in chastity, my orgasms no longer mine, but hers.