Slave ArmoryRose

I want to be dominated into working toward becoming a better version of myself. I was widowed a few years ago and doing things alone has been a struggle for me. I want to do things like go to the library and to local outdoor movie showings. I want to be healthier in body and in mind, and there’s just something about doing it “for” someone that makes it more meaningful to me. But I’ve never done this before, so I don’t know if what I’m wanting is reasonable. I feel like I might be asking for too much—if I were in person, I could offer plenty lol - but online, I’m not sure what I have to offer in exchange. 🤔 

Well I tried to do a Surrender task, but it went terribly. The task was to kneel in Endure position on thumbtacks. I’ve got a genetic bone disease that has messed up my spine and joints so I can’t hold positions. I tried anyway. I think I managed like 30 seconds at most bc of my back. The thumbtacks under my feet definitely stung, but it was my spine that couldn’t do the job. Boo 😭

update: I got credit for it! He said I put in amazing effort so that cheered me up. I’m kind of glowing now 🙂🙂🙂

I always feel like I don’t belong anywhere, or don’t deserve to participate in things that are Just For Fun. I plan to take more photos soon, but I’m thinking now I should — I don’t know, I need to Get Ready, I need to get my hair cut and lose 50 pounds and learn more about all this before I go making a profile, but of course it’s too late for that. And also shouldn’t I be on a dating site, not a kink site? But I don’t want to grab a coffee, I want to be owned and directed and guided and…well anyway, I’m here. I’m 40, and 240 pounds—down from 310 though, so…ugh why am I saying all of this? It’s TMI isn’t it? I just want the quiet in my mind. I need quiet in my mind. So…I don’t think Hinge has an option for that lol 😂 so. Here I am, or—here, I will be, anyway, once I figure out what kind of photos to take.